Lunatic's Confessions.

I dreamt about a couple of people last night, terrible but lovely at the same time. Kind of like a nightmare as some people in the dream were almost haunting me, stalking and accosting me. These people were scary enough in person, imagine what they were like in my dream. Sheesh, thank god they appeared and went off only for about 5 mins, well, at least according to La La Land time. And then some were friends i havent met for a long time. And then there he was, amidst all the chaos in my wonderland, he came by. Weird. Weird i tell you, the setting of the dream and the conversation was even weirder, makes it seems as though... Hmm... but it was nice to see him, even if its only in my dream.

Anyway, the picnic yesterday was fun but a bit suay since it rained on us, not once, not twice but three times. And third times the charm, since it was a freaking storm (thunder, lightning, big waves crashing to the shore) and we went home after that. We were stranded with a bunch of philipinos and europeans, under the small shelter, which didnt really shelter us from the storm. Haha, what a wet belated birthday surprise for norain. My surprise that menjadi due to the rain. Boohoo, but the cake was delicious. And after we had the cake, we smeared norain with whipped cream, nope, not the whipped cream from the cake, that would be a waste and fruthermore the cake doesnt have cream on top, it was covered in melted chocolate...SIGH, YUMMY!!!!! Wahaha, norain smelled like pastry and then there were puffs of whipped cream floating all over the sea. Nice.

We talked about work. I dont know lah, everyone seems kind of dissatisfied with the job that they have. Everyone seems to be saying that the grass is greener on the other side. I dont know what else to say. We just have to take it as it comes. But sometimes, i just feel like giving up. On everything. I beleive i've made a comment on someone's blog, asking whether death is the only escape. Now when i think back, maybe death is the only escape, IF you discount the fact of judgement day and all that. Death is the only escape from the evil clutches of life. Ahh, whatever lah.

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