Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Thursday, June 23, 2005
BRoke
Yeah well, im really,really broke man. Not to mention pissed off when one of our group members came late, again, and still don't know what to do. The funny thing is, she talk a lot when GSK came and she talk chim, as if she understood what she said in the first place. What the hell seh. Don't try to act smart lah. We know you don't know... Anyway, what ticks me off was when the general (can't name her because she'll say that im criticising,hehe) told her to sketch, she sat and stare at her paper and what she came up with was....haiz...better not say in case she has spies...hahaha..
So,the model making sucks and so was the pin up just now. I wish i could just snap my fingers and everything would be measured up for me to cut and paste..hehe..lazy seh...
Damn, its almost time to lock out...have fun doing model..i know im loving it,NOT! Ciao..
So,the model making sucks and so was the pin up just now. I wish i could just snap my fingers and everything would be measured up for me to cut and paste..hehe..lazy seh...
Damn, its almost time to lock out...have fun doing model..i know im loving it,NOT! Ciao..
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
monday's insight
Thank god there is no school on Monday. I was beginning to feel that I’m dragging my feet to school. But really, its boring, frustrating and confusing at the same time. Anyway, let’s talk about what’s happened lately.
I’m sure everyone’s heard or seen the news about the China lady who’s been chopped up to pieces, stuffed inside green plastic bags and thrown into the Kallang river, if I’m not mistaken. That’s just plain cruel man. Just imagine the pain the parents of the deceased are going through. The murderer is sick and inhumane, and I think he’s crazy too. But, let me side track for a while, craziness is our primal instinct right? I think I read this somewhere (thus spoke zarathustra, I think) and it makes sense. We’re all crazy, lunatics, madmen, insane, etc, etc in reality. But at one point of time, someone started acting ‘normal’ and everyone followed suit, because it feels right or they just want to be with the in crowd. So, what’s considered not normal now is the craziness, the insanity and the madness when it was the norm a long, long time ago. You’ll be asking me what’s my point or what’s the moral of the story right now and I’ll say that we’re all crazy. Ok, it’s irrelevant to the story but just remember that we look insane to the madmen. So don’t go mocking and laughing at people with loose screws or lost marbles. They’re normal.
Another interesting topic would be the one about the nude blogger on Sunday’s newpaper. Hey, what’s the fuss over a teenager’s nude picture man? Can’t they see that she just wants cheap publicity? By reading the interview everyone knows that she’s an intellectual who, most probably, no one cares to listen to so puts up a nude photo of herself in the net so as to be seen and heard. So what if she says she’s a self confessed exhibitionist? That’s just a nicer term for pornography, babe. Have you no shame, you SPG blogger? I guess not. I bet she loves the attention the voyeurs are giving her. Yucks.
I know I have no right to criticize her since my blog contains explicit content but there’s always a better way to be heard. Not just through nude pictures. She’s an intellectual for god’s sake. She should know better than to lower herself to that level. Ahh, no one’s perfect. But on second thought, it’s her blog and she has the right to put in what ever shit she wants to. So, why the fuss? Let her be then, it’s not as if she’s creating an exhibitionist movement among the bloggers. Blogging is a private thing gone public and so the public should just shut the hell up and stop mocking other blogger’s entries. Do you like it if someone mocked your entries? Ok, I think I should shut up because I’m part of the public and what I’m doing now is mocking my fellow blogger. Damn, right back at you di…
By the way, I can’t help but feel that everyone’s against me. It’s just so pissing me off. I can’t say this, I can’t do that, I can’t write that, I shouldn’t eat that and I can’t think that way. Hey, what the hell seh? Why is it that everything I’m doing is wrong and everyone is right? Who gave you the right to judge me in the first place? You can do it but I can’t?
Look me in the eye and say that you’ve never done and will never do the things I did!!! It’s so irritating to know that people think they are superior to you and that they know everything. Does knowing everything make you a better person? I don’t think so.
Ok, so I’m being too sensitive but hey, don’t tell me you’re not. We’re humans, we have feelings. Try as you might to ignore the feelings, it’s still there dude. Just accept the fact that nobody’s perfect. And one more thing, why should I do the things that people do?! I mean, if someone jumped from the 11th floor, should I follow him/her? Or if someone skipped lecture, should I skip too? It’s so hard living this life. There’s no such thing as an individual anymore. We’re made to move and think in batches. Is that a good thing? Well, it is when you’re in the army or something but in real life… Haiz, I think I’ve had enough of crapping about life. I’m getting kind of hungry and the smell of chicken curry is so tempting so.., Ciao..
I’m sure everyone’s heard or seen the news about the China lady who’s been chopped up to pieces, stuffed inside green plastic bags and thrown into the Kallang river, if I’m not mistaken. That’s just plain cruel man. Just imagine the pain the parents of the deceased are going through. The murderer is sick and inhumane, and I think he’s crazy too. But, let me side track for a while, craziness is our primal instinct right? I think I read this somewhere (thus spoke zarathustra, I think) and it makes sense. We’re all crazy, lunatics, madmen, insane, etc, etc in reality. But at one point of time, someone started acting ‘normal’ and everyone followed suit, because it feels right or they just want to be with the in crowd. So, what’s considered not normal now is the craziness, the insanity and the madness when it was the norm a long, long time ago. You’ll be asking me what’s my point or what’s the moral of the story right now and I’ll say that we’re all crazy. Ok, it’s irrelevant to the story but just remember that we look insane to the madmen. So don’t go mocking and laughing at people with loose screws or lost marbles. They’re normal.
Another interesting topic would be the one about the nude blogger on Sunday’s newpaper. Hey, what’s the fuss over a teenager’s nude picture man? Can’t they see that she just wants cheap publicity? By reading the interview everyone knows that she’s an intellectual who, most probably, no one cares to listen to so puts up a nude photo of herself in the net so as to be seen and heard. So what if she says she’s a self confessed exhibitionist? That’s just a nicer term for pornography, babe. Have you no shame, you SPG blogger? I guess not. I bet she loves the attention the voyeurs are giving her. Yucks.
I know I have no right to criticize her since my blog contains explicit content but there’s always a better way to be heard. Not just through nude pictures. She’s an intellectual for god’s sake. She should know better than to lower herself to that level. Ahh, no one’s perfect. But on second thought, it’s her blog and she has the right to put in what ever shit she wants to. So, why the fuss? Let her be then, it’s not as if she’s creating an exhibitionist movement among the bloggers. Blogging is a private thing gone public and so the public should just shut the hell up and stop mocking other blogger’s entries. Do you like it if someone mocked your entries? Ok, I think I should shut up because I’m part of the public and what I’m doing now is mocking my fellow blogger. Damn, right back at you di…
By the way, I can’t help but feel that everyone’s against me. It’s just so pissing me off. I can’t say this, I can’t do that, I can’t write that, I shouldn’t eat that and I can’t think that way. Hey, what the hell seh? Why is it that everything I’m doing is wrong and everyone is right? Who gave you the right to judge me in the first place? You can do it but I can’t?
Look me in the eye and say that you’ve never done and will never do the things I did!!! It’s so irritating to know that people think they are superior to you and that they know everything. Does knowing everything make you a better person? I don’t think so.
Ok, so I’m being too sensitive but hey, don’t tell me you’re not. We’re humans, we have feelings. Try as you might to ignore the feelings, it’s still there dude. Just accept the fact that nobody’s perfect. And one more thing, why should I do the things that people do?! I mean, if someone jumped from the 11th floor, should I follow him/her? Or if someone skipped lecture, should I skip too? It’s so hard living this life. There’s no such thing as an individual anymore. We’re made to move and think in batches. Is that a good thing? Well, it is when you’re in the army or something but in real life… Haiz, I think I’ve had enough of crapping about life. I’m getting kind of hungry and the smell of chicken curry is so tempting so.., Ciao..
Friday, June 17, 2005
F up
I just finished amending the vivo city plan. Man, it was a pain in the ass because I forgot to bring back the soft copy of the amended version. I felt like an idiot seh. Well, im guessing everyone would be nodding their heads to the statement above.
Anyway, yesterday night was like the most fucked up day I could ever had. I won’t elaborate because it just makes my blood boil and I want to bash something or someone up. Im still very pissed off when I think about it. A family of ball-less man and whores are really, really going to get it. Not from me definitely but from God. May they fucking rot in hell man!!! Man, im soo pissed off.
Talking to Norain helped ease my anger, a bit (well, only 10% though). Hey Deq, hope you could keep my problem between us yar? And im sorry for the vast amount of profanities spitting out of my mouth in top speed. I couldn’t help it seh. If I was crazy I would have thrown the rubbish bin from the 3rd floor corridor or I would have stomped and kicked and maybe gnawed the bin. Thank god I have a bit of sanity left in me. I must have looked like a lunatic, crying and cursing with my arms waving in the air.
It was ironic, you know. It was just a few hours after praying to God for the wellbeing and for peace of mind for my family when the bloody @$%#$&^%& thing happened. I can take it if it was about me but when it concerns my family, then I curse back their fucking, satanic family. I feel like screaming my head off right now. If I ever saw them in public, I promise you I would slap their fucking faces and spit them on the face. If that’s not enough I would scream out to the public that they are a bunch of whores and pimps and even dogs won’t stop to sniff at them.
Ok, mengucap di. Aku betul-betul tak faham kenapa orang dengki sangat dengan family aku. We’re not rich in the first place. Why find fault with us? Kita tak berhutang dengan orang. Sakit hati betul lah bila difikirkan. Dari dulu sampai sekarang tak habis-habis nak menyusahkan orang lain. Kalau nak mampus, nak menyundal atau nak kena sondol dengan binatang, jangan nak babitkan orang lain. Just because kita ni bukan kaki gaduh, tak semestinya kita nak duduk diam saja bila orang nak aibkan kita. Haram jadah betul lah betina tu.
What saddens me is that that ball-less man is related to us. Kalau arwah nenek masih ada, tak jadi macam ni. I won’t forgive that bastard and that whore for breaking nenek’s heart when she depended on them. That was all in the past and I thought I could forget it but now that this has happened, jangan harap aku nak lupa. Sampai mati lah aku simpan dendam ni. I know, dendam dengan amarah boleh memakan diri but this is just too much. Just imagine if you went out to meet your friends and one of them slaps your face as a joke. You might (MIGHT) take it lightly at first but if that person does it again and again everytime you meet, don’t you just feel like shoving a sewer pipe through their asshole?
Hope you get what I mean when I say im really pissed off. No more crying for me. No more trusting your own relatives. So, think I’ll curse in my sleep then Ciao.
Anyway, yesterday night was like the most fucked up day I could ever had. I won’t elaborate because it just makes my blood boil and I want to bash something or someone up. Im still very pissed off when I think about it. A family of ball-less man and whores are really, really going to get it. Not from me definitely but from God. May they fucking rot in hell man!!! Man, im soo pissed off.
Talking to Norain helped ease my anger, a bit (well, only 10% though). Hey Deq, hope you could keep my problem between us yar? And im sorry for the vast amount of profanities spitting out of my mouth in top speed. I couldn’t help it seh. If I was crazy I would have thrown the rubbish bin from the 3rd floor corridor or I would have stomped and kicked and maybe gnawed the bin. Thank god I have a bit of sanity left in me. I must have looked like a lunatic, crying and cursing with my arms waving in the air.
It was ironic, you know. It was just a few hours after praying to God for the wellbeing and for peace of mind for my family when the bloody @$%#$&^%& thing happened. I can take it if it was about me but when it concerns my family, then I curse back their fucking, satanic family. I feel like screaming my head off right now. If I ever saw them in public, I promise you I would slap their fucking faces and spit them on the face. If that’s not enough I would scream out to the public that they are a bunch of whores and pimps and even dogs won’t stop to sniff at them.
Ok, mengucap di. Aku betul-betul tak faham kenapa orang dengki sangat dengan family aku. We’re not rich in the first place. Why find fault with us? Kita tak berhutang dengan orang. Sakit hati betul lah bila difikirkan. Dari dulu sampai sekarang tak habis-habis nak menyusahkan orang lain. Kalau nak mampus, nak menyundal atau nak kena sondol dengan binatang, jangan nak babitkan orang lain. Just because kita ni bukan kaki gaduh, tak semestinya kita nak duduk diam saja bila orang nak aibkan kita. Haram jadah betul lah betina tu.
What saddens me is that that ball-less man is related to us. Kalau arwah nenek masih ada, tak jadi macam ni. I won’t forgive that bastard and that whore for breaking nenek’s heart when she depended on them. That was all in the past and I thought I could forget it but now that this has happened, jangan harap aku nak lupa. Sampai mati lah aku simpan dendam ni. I know, dendam dengan amarah boleh memakan diri but this is just too much. Just imagine if you went out to meet your friends and one of them slaps your face as a joke. You might (MIGHT) take it lightly at first but if that person does it again and again everytime you meet, don’t you just feel like shoving a sewer pipe through their asshole?
Hope you get what I mean when I say im really pissed off. No more crying for me. No more trusting your own relatives. So, think I’ll curse in my sleep then Ciao.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Morning
I overslept again.I just dont get it.I set my alarm to 6.15 but i went back to sleep again after i switched it off.This is frustrating.I have to break the habit before it gets worse.
Anyway, yesterday's gathering was oklah.I was quite shocked when Pak Ngah,who was at the door when i reached mak itam's house,suddenly gave me a hundred bucks to share with my sisters.I was like "What the Fuck...".But i didnt say that to him lah.So with the blur like sotong face,i thanked him and went inside to salam the rest of my aunts and uncles.There were not many people there.My Ayah,Pak Busu and Pak Andak's family were M.I.A.Kak mimi had to go off to work i guess.Mak itam kept telling me to eat,eat and eat while Mak Angah thought i just got back from work.Hehehe,they were having fun karaoke-ing,eh,is there such a word in the first place?
So,after eating and getting myself f*cking full,i went and sat with my mum and dad before being joined by my 3 sisters in just 5 seconds. We were like huddled in front of the speakers which were blasting off the music in our ears.Haha,what a sight man.It feels so nice to have the family so close together.So im a sucker for family gahterings like what norain said..hehe,well i cant help it cos it has always been about the family gatherings when we stayed in Bukit Batok and when my grandma was still alive.
It feels nice to have your sisters asking you whether you've eaten and talking to you about stuff,ahh shit, i gotta do work,write in later
Anyway, yesterday's gathering was oklah.I was quite shocked when Pak Ngah,who was at the door when i reached mak itam's house,suddenly gave me a hundred bucks to share with my sisters.I was like "What the Fuck...".But i didnt say that to him lah.So with the blur like sotong face,i thanked him and went inside to salam the rest of my aunts and uncles.There were not many people there.My Ayah,Pak Busu and Pak Andak's family were M.I.A.Kak mimi had to go off to work i guess.Mak itam kept telling me to eat,eat and eat while Mak Angah thought i just got back from work.Hehehe,they were having fun karaoke-ing,eh,is there such a word in the first place?
So,after eating and getting myself f*cking full,i went and sat with my mum and dad before being joined by my 3 sisters in just 5 seconds. We were like huddled in front of the speakers which were blasting off the music in our ears.Haha,what a sight man.It feels so nice to have the family so close together.So im a sucker for family gahterings like what norain said..hehe,well i cant help it cos it has always been about the family gatherings when we stayed in Bukit Batok and when my grandma was still alive.
It feels nice to have your sisters asking you whether you've eaten and talking to you about stuff,ahh shit, i gotta do work,write in later
Friday, June 10, 2005
CRIT??Yar rite?
Haha,norain's crapping in MALAY about appreciating God's gift or something.Sometimes i think she's a bit off,you know what i mean..
My presentation was over.It was lame because it was only 5 mins and what more can you talk on about merging corners?Anyway,i was too spaced out to elaborate more on the concept.
Getting kind of sleepy right now. Norain is sleeping at the corner,boh of us are drained out because of this stupid project.Think i'll have a little nap then..Ciao
My presentation was over.It was lame because it was only 5 mins and what more can you talk on about merging corners?Anyway,i was too spaced out to elaborate more on the concept.
Getting kind of sleepy right now. Norain is sleeping at the corner,boh of us are drained out because of this stupid project.Think i'll have a little nap then..Ciao
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Lovely Day
Haha...its a lovely day and i dont mean it.Its the blahdy 1st week of school and i still dont have a scheme, an idea generator, a concept yet.The intech and Tod lecturers are kind of cool.They have a different way of thinking and teaching and i think that's something good from this third year. Design studio sucks. No offense to Mr GSK but he keeps repeating things over and over and over and over...(you know what i mean). Anyway.its nice to be around people again.Its been a hell of a time in ITP. Not because of the workload or the boss but because there's no people of my kind to talk and crap around with.There's only the dog, the maid and the radio which is stubbornly stuck at the gold 90 fm channel.
Ahh..now lehning and GSK is just around the corner.Norain is whining and crying,begging that i would present my work before her(im exaggerating at this point yar).Lehning looks so dangerous. Like he might kill you anytime..hehe..i know,another exaggeration.Norain is scaring the hell out of me right now so i think i'd better join in the whining,the nervous laughter and the 'im so scared' anthem.Ciao babe.
Ahh..now lehning and GSK is just around the corner.Norain is whining and crying,begging that i would present my work before her(im exaggerating at this point yar).Lehning looks so dangerous. Like he might kill you anytime..hehe..i know,another exaggeration.Norain is scaring the hell out of me right now so i think i'd better join in the whining,the nervous laughter and the 'im so scared' anthem.Ciao babe.
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