Heh

Pissed off, say what you want but im still pissed. I don’t get it, I just don’t get it. I mean, why me? Why is it always me? Anyway, the Theory lecture was about Adolf Loos and the Secessions (is this correct?). About the modern man, ornaments and all that stuff. So, we all found out that Loos is a racist, a fascist and a sicko. How cool is that? Not cool at all. A sicko like that should be put in an asylum. See, I told you that all the artists are weird or sick. That makes them special. But Loos has got to be the blandest, boring and fascist old fart. Thank God he’s dead…. Thank God.
Anyway, the old dude mentioned that we have masks. We, the modern man, cant always say what’s in our mind. The real us is hidden. Im confused right now. I have a mask…. don’t I??? I usually say what’s in my mind. When im pissed or angry, I show it, I never try to hide it. That’s why people always say that im always pissed and I always sulk. So what, they want me to hide it all. Be all nice and sweet. Talk in hushed tones, like Japanese girls (no offense to them). That’s not me. I swear everyday, I shout, I scream, I sulk, I laugh out very loud and I throw insults at people as and when I feel like it. It is wrong to be yourself?? I mean, how else can a person express himself/herself?
Through ART…. Heh, feels like im writing a thesis paper. Yap, backtracking to the part where I said that all artists are either weird or sick (doesn’t it mean the same?). I read the old dude’s book, Theories of Modern Art, and it’s really very useful (I recommend you to get it). It says that the artist expresses himself, hey wait, backtrack again. Im not sure if this is from the old dude’s book. Most probably this is my point of view (hehe….). Freedom of expression through art (not through killing people or all that other shit), every artist has his own way of expressing himself/herself. But the thing is, people seem to have something against the individuals who are really original. Like Van Gogh and Rembrandt, and the art movements such as Dada, the Surrealist and the Futurist (FYI, I don’t like the Futurists at all). Didn’t they realise that these individuals are the ones who bring colour to art and life itself? Why do every thing that other people do? Why buy stuff that others buy? Why do you say what others had said? Hmmm…. What im saying right now could be what someone else has said before…. Woah…
I have a quote from Josep Quetglas. He says “The artist /architect does not control his/her works completely; rather, the artist or architect intuits what he/she wants to say but seldom finds a way of saying it, being, in the end, an instrument, though a relevant one, in the making of a work which he/she only partly governs”. Very deep huh? I guess what it means is that we can’t control what we design. The end result of our works is only a part of what we wanted it to be in our minds. Hmm… im not sure im making sense right now but we cant control what others feel about our works right? Unless…. you point a gun at someone’s temples and tell them to say what you want to hear lah.. Hehe..
I just cant seem to stop talking about art nowadays, haiz…, Im influenced by the Theory lectures. Anyway, I’ve got to continue doing my model right now. Soccer is like, 3 hours from now and I’ve yet to write the 5th issue.. damn.. There’s also the stupid csw and the rhino tutorial.. bloody hell.. haiz.. good luck to me and Happy New Year to you…Ciao…

P.S: I apologise for any discrepancies on subjects relating to the old dude’s Theory
lectures. Some of it is based on my own interpretation and understanding of the
lectures or text. If you’re sick of reading all this stuff, then you are cordially invited
to buzz off! Stay out of my blog!

DIsturbed

Damn, I borrowed a lot of books just now. And I can’t believe that Norain called me selenge just because of that. Why?! Damn it, my love for books has gained me the nerd title. Arh…, what the hell….
Anyway, back to the books, it was like hell when I went home just now. My right shoulder felt like dropping off. Really, it was that heavy. Silly me to just accept the Iliad when Norain shoved it in my face….bengap seh…. Wait, I have a confession to make. Hans Bellmer’s stuff is very, very disturbing. I don’t know if I can continue with it. I’m scared, not of writing the theory paper but of what his works will do to me, mentally and spiritually….Sheesh…I’m talking rubbish. But really, it’s very disturbing lah. I hope I don’t get nightmares. Should I ask the old dude if I can change to some other artist? Nah, that would be a stupid thing to do because I proposed Bellmer in the first place. What have I gotten myself into? Don’t answer that please.
Yar….Norain asked me why I like Mies. Hmm… why ar? I don’t really like him, it’s just that the simplicity and the kind of emptiness in his works make me choose him. I want to know why he designed his houses and pavilions that way. Eh, can I change to some other Dada artist? No, Di, no…you can’t back out now….Haiz….
Guess what? Boy is sleeping right now. That darn cat, he always disturbs me at night. He keeps slamming his body at my feet while mauling his stuffed giraffe. And everytime I wake up to slap him, he runs off with it. If he does it again tonight, I’ll either bite his ears off (hey, I’ll be like Van Gogh…) or I’ll slash his precious stuffed giraffe…hah… But he’s sooo cute, he looks like a bat with his big, round, green eyes and his bulging belly….hehe.
Want to know why I’m poring over the library books? I’m trying to forget the fact that Motorola E398 is $38 right now. I’m trying to forget that it has mp3 and camera functions. I’m trying to forget that I want it so badly…I want ‘Hello Moto’!!! Ok, chill Di….Hmm, I wonder what my mum will be bringing back home tonight? I hope its food because I’m famished dude…I could eat a horse, or a cat…hehehehe…. (with an evil grin…) Where’s my precious and scrumptious Boy? Here Kitty, kitty….

Bored

I'm sooo bored and sleepy...n im...nt sure what to write actually....the studio is like a prison...
im suffocating and im goin loco because of all the lame songs being played...n norain is making weird sounds.... i cant stop laughing out loud...help....so before i die of boredom,or of insanity..
i'd like to say that i love my family so much and that norain really is an asshole....

Sublime...

Gosh, its been awhile since I wrote in. Maybe I should just keep this blogging a 1 month thing??? Anyway, the holiday was bloody boring. I had to amuse myself by cleaning, cooking and finding excuses to get out of the house. Im claustrophobic you know..haha. Now its the 2nd week of school and Im really glad to be back. The only turn off is that we’re continuing the project with the same brand..haiz..yap, I think I’ll be stuck with Origins forever..NOOOO..
damn it..
And to tell you the truth, I’m damn glad that we’re still having the old dude for Theory. I mean, Theory won’t be the same without him, right? Norain would be saying that I’m trying to saka the old dude or something right about..NOW..hahaha. But seriously, I bet this semester’s lectures will be fun because most of it will be on art movements of the past. Yes, the old dude will be talking about Dada, Surrealism, De Stijl and yada, yada, yada. Well, he talked about the Cubists and Futurists (a very anarchic and sexist group I must say) a few days ago, which might be influencing the 5th edition of the AFM (hint, hint).
The Manifesto (I think) by Sant'Ellia was very revolutionary and persuasive. Imagine someone saying that out loud right now, he’ll either be caught for encouraging war and terrorism or for being a nuisance. The old dude was so into the text as he read it to us (the letter where the general wrote of the death of Sant’Ellia)..hehe..he said it really shook him as he read it loudly..It was a bit weird at that time because everyone kept quiet, it was like MAGIC,really, no one really keeps quiet when the old dude talks so this is a once in a lifetime thing. Way to go old dude..hehe..
So I decided to write on Mies and Hans Bellmer for the Theory paper. The old dude gave me a weird look when I said Hans’ name. I think he couldn’t believe what I said. So what if Hans is a misogynist? So what if there’s not much info about him? He’s very interesting in a sort of sick way. His paintings and photos are very provocative. That’s enough to set me thinking of lots of stuff to write about him. It’s just too bad that the library has to close early because of Christmas. If not for that, I would have rushed to the library to get the big surrealist book.
You must be wondering why I’m so excited to write about these two old (or dead) farts. Both of them are weird guys. I think every artist (this sums up architect, painter, sculptor, etc) has their own weirdness about them. It’s like they’re in a world of their own. For example, Kurt Schwitters with his Merzbau and Van Gogh with his cut out ear, both of them seem to be in seclusion (Im not sure about Van Gogh though). I wish I could be like that. Well, not the cutting of the ear lah but being in your own world kind of thing. Before I forgot, let me add Gaudi to the list of weird artists. People still don’t know the reason for the Sagrada Familia being the way it is. It seems as though Gaudi meant for it to be talked and discussed upon years after his death. What the hell was he thinking when he designed the cathedral? Hmm..
What else do I want to talk about before this Radiohead’s album is over? Oh yeah, it has occurred to me that everyone is out to get me. Im not kidding, the culprits are the people in my cubby, and the old dude too. Call me paranoid but Norain keeps stepping on my shoe, kicking my leg and Colleen keeps bullying me. Why me? Why? Just because I dont look stable (all thanks to my messy hair) and I have the stoned look (Im having difficulty falling asleep nowadays), it doesnt mean that they have to target me. Haiz..Its so difficult being popular..
Hahaha..think I'd better sign off now before more nonsense comes out..Ciao..