and the musical was fantastico...

lah dey.. Guess who we (mum and i) saw at the musical??? Fauzi laily and shah, and then beatrice chia and mark richmond. Wahlau eh, mak nampak fauzi dulu. Aku da excited bercampur tak sabar terus baca the musical brochure after we got seated. Then mum looked around and asked me if that was fauzi at the door. And i went 'what, where, are you sure?' on her. And when finally those boys reached our row barulah i realise its them. Sorry, i nie malam2 memang buta terus haha. So, Fauzi was using crutches and Shah was wearing a bowler hat, in a theater, at night?? Anyway, mum smiled at them while i tried to read the brochure. Then when they sat 2 rows in front, i was gushing to mum how the sisters would be jealous that we saw those guys.

Back to the musical, it wasnt what i expected because i've never been to a musical before (if you count out the beauty world musical i saw in primary school which i can only vaguely remember). The props were cool, especially the trains. And i love the paparazzi's parts, especially the song "dengar2 sini semua.." But the most mind blowing thing has got to be Musly Ramlee. That guys' likeness to P Ramlee made the experience surreal after only 10 mins of watching him perform. And half the time i sat there i kept forgetting that this is not P Ramlee. Though there were a few times when he sang where i could distintly make out the wrong notes. Macam betul jer aku nie, but having grown up watching the movies a hundred times either out of boredom or the need to have a good laugh, i think i kinda know what P ramlee really sounds like. Cheh...

I didnt really like the others though, emelda, atillia and melissa saila..too unlikeable, whatever that's suppose to mean. But atillia's voice was very nice, read some where that she just made a record, must make mental note to look out for that.

Liza Hanim was super dee duper funny and charming on stage. Such a doll. I was really looking forward to hearing her sing live, and i wasnt disappointed. Fabulous i tell you. And when she wore the tight long dress with the labuci(saloma's signature dress) i was so stunned as the similarity was very striking. She carried out her part perfectly, i guess that's how Saloma was, very the manja.

Throughout the musical, there were moments i felt like crying as i cant believe that finally i got a peek into allahyarham P ramlee's life. For the sake of this thing they call SENI/art, he made lots of sacrifices. The circumstances before his death, dipulaukan atau dilupakan oleh society/filmakers (i think), is very sad. But this made him recognised now. Like what i told norain, it takes death to bring a person glory or infamy. Philosophical pulak aku nowadays.

So yeah, if given a chance, i would really love to watch this again. If only arwah nenek was alive to watch it, the musical really reminded me of her..haiz..

im gonna watch a musical..alalala..

OMG, OMG, OMG.....

just watched smap just now, the one where Ueno Juri and Tamaki Hiroshi were guests, i could almost die of happiness i tell you. How often is it do you get to see 2 of your favourite idols on the same screen????? Both look uber hot lah, cant deny that tamaki is younger but takuya just exudes that aura..i just wanna give him a bear hug seh, especially when he laughs. And tamaki, aiyo yo, lips are soo..kissable.. sheesh..drooolssss.......

Anyway, now im hooked on kazuya kamenashi plak, all thanks to gokusen 2 lah..but the thing is, he looks gay leh..not just the look but the way he carries himself...errrgh, dont tell me its true..

WHERE'S THE FUCKING SHIELDTOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blahdy piece of fuck im being attacked by 2 bees, 2 fucking bees who are hovering at my pc and then keep zooming towards my head!!! Fuck lah, if u want to die, go some place else. and if u want to spawn, my office isnt the best place for you to fuck, you fucking insects!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Babi seh, its like an insect house here. just 1 month ago, the ugly green metallic bug kept making my pc area its deathbed. I'll reach office and i will be stepping on something like plastic only to find that the 'corpse' hardened. And i stepped on it leh, barefoot leh...Can you imagine the horror??!!!!! I cant even bear to step on bugs while wearing shoes, inikan pulak barefoot!!!!! ARGH!!!!! And dont get me started on moths, its like the 20th floor here, why do they choose my office as their mauselum??!!!

i've got 3 simple solutions for this stupid bug problem...

1) Dont open window, use aircon. BUT I CANT STAND AIRCON!!!!!!!!!!!!

2) Scotch tape the mesh curtain to the window when i open it. So the fucking lil bastards wont come in.

3) BUY MORTEIN/SHIELDTOX WHATEVER INSECT KILLING THING THAT'S AVAILABLE IN THE MARKET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And then im gonna spray and then smack those buggers with the broom. DIE YOU EVIL FIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And right now, i look like an asshole in my hooded sweater with a newspaper on my head for protection. Fuck, im soo pathetic....im going off, headache's getting worst...

i will love you forevarrr....

yes, i watched Pride, again. im sorry, but im still hooked on it, J-serials lah.. I salute takuya Kimura, so versatile, can sing, act, comedy also can...Sheesh, he's so hot lah dey..

Does true love really exist?
Is there someone out there waiting for me?
Do i have a chance to love and be loved?

Thanks to these types of serials, im now plaqued with these qns, which are swimming around in my head persistently, clinging onto the deep recesses of my mind. Its becoming of an obsession, the only thing that's in my head right now, other than work.

And we were running around, her highness and me, trying to catch iron man at cineleisure. But the damn thing only end at 2am, the only slot that we could get. Of course i can choose to go home late but we gotta respect her parents curfew. Seriously, sometimes i think if i dont go home at all, no one would really notice since im always coming home late due to work anyway. Can i say that my parents trust in me so much or that they dont give a shit. The former is for mum, the latter is dad..

Anyhoo, i dont know lah, it feels like this is not really worth it. This life. I dont know exactly what i want to achieve. For god's sake im 22 and still have no real motif/agenda in life. So useless man. im so useless, sometimes i feels like im only doing this for the sake of being able to work, spend money, buy food to eat and live. What is the real purpose in all this?

But deep down i feel guilty. I dont know how to love Him properly, how do i expect to be loved at all? Why cant i love Him first before trying to achieve worldly loves... Sad right? i keep forgetting His love is more rewarding. That is what i need to achieve since He lent me this life, this atemporal life, talent if i might say so...


fuck i forgot i need to pay courts...babi lahhhhh

aiyo yoh..

alamak, penat siol kene buat documentation for the BT project. Dahlah tadi MD call, kene taruk dimension tulah, annotate nilah. As if contractor baca betul2 dwgs aku?? Dorg bile project to da one week bergerak baru nak tanye aku for details, Amoy whats this? Amoy how to do that?macam aku tak tau pulak dorg nye tebiat. Anyway, tadi sedang aku tengah layan tension pasal orang tue tu membebel about my lack of info in the dwgs, terpancul lah sentence yang bagi aku, kelakar giler, kalau tak kelakar, lame lah...

'' tidakkah kau nampak apa yang telah aku hantar...?? '' or something like that. Otak aku pun tak betul juga eh? Macam berbual dalam bahasa melayu kuno, oops, bahasa baku. Senang cakap macam zaman Hang Tuah but without the pantun lah. Silap hari bulan betul2 aku cakap macam ni bila berbual ngan orang.

Sebenarnya, dah lama juga timbul idea nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu, bukan bahasa pasar tapi BAHASA MELAYU. Tapi aku betul2 rimas dan cukup tak sabar bila bab membaca balik sebab its all too flowery. Ini belum start tulis lagi nie... Tapi (aku sidetrack sikit) aku tak boleh disalahkan kerana tak ada kesabaran. Zaman kita sekarang ni nak semua benda cepat , chop2, on time. Macam aku ni, as im typing, bukan aku type words in full but in sms lingo. Nak cepat katakan. Bila tak ada internet, ish, CHOY, jangan cakaplah, aku boleh gila seh. Cuba kau bayangkan, im in singapore and boss is in God knows which country, if not for internet, macam mana nak berkomunikasi dan hantar dwgs, etc? Lebih baik aku tak keje, which is a very lovely thought i might add.

Fikiran aku tak bercelaru, cuma perasaan aku ni tak tentu arah. Nak kata lovesick, tak jugak cuma aku ni skarang addicted sangat lah dengan series Nodame due to tamaki hiroshi who just exudes coolness and hotness. And also takuya kimura, iiiissshhhh, he is even more sexy.. macam nak cair when he makes that brooding sulky face..whahahha...

klah, nak sambung buat keje, aku macam nak cabut ajerr......

and the reason for the emo-ness...

...is because that week of the month has arrived. That's why i cried at the slightest sad moments in the j-dramas that i've watched. Dont get me started on Nodame Cantabile. All the scenes have been popping up in my mind, like flashbacks. And im sooo addicted to Tamaki Hiroshi, i think i might just froth in the mouth if i dont see his picture or watch a video of him today. And takuya kimura, why do i feel like giggling like a bimbo and melting into a puddle all at the same time whenever i watch ur movie or drama? These guys are too hot i tell you. And they should be punished for making me dream of them at night. Yeah, they should be sentenced to a kiss and a bear hug from lil ol moi, EVERYDAY....wahaha, yes, im evil...

Anyway, I am in desperate need of some action and drama in my life. No, not the drama in work, that's a different kind of thing altogether. I want to fall in love. head over heels in love. I want to be dumped and dump someone else in return. I want to feel anger and sadness over that someone. And for once i want to be needed, like my presence matters to people other than my family or friends. For someone to message me asking how my day was or to tell me just how cute i am. Hey, I AM CUTE. For someone to shower me with attention and affection. Is that so much to ask for??

And also to love that someone, to worry about him, to be angry at him, to make him feel like he's the handsomest guy in the world (but no one can top chester, takuya and tamaki lah). To talka nd eat togehter and just to walk side by side. to listen to his fears, his frustration, his happiness, his dreams and make it mine as well.

But somewhere inside, it feels like these kind of things doesnt exist and that its not real. So do i mean to say that everybody around me is not in love but just going through the motions?

Am i cynical cos i dont think they really are in love? I dont know. And i dont think i can ever fall in love. It is just absurd to think that someone out there will fall in love with a short potty mouth, scatterbrained, jap/korea drama addict and Chester loving Me. Its like saying i like techno music!!

But i wish He will grant me the opportunity to fall in love, even if it means i get my heart broken into a million pieces or i act all girly girl/lovey dovey. Cos then all those love songs will mean much more,and i guess i will really be LIVING and not just ''going through the motions.."

Cheh, im so emo, i hate it...

im hooked again...

I couldnt take it, i had to watch a j drama or movie. And yesterday was like the tamaki hiroshi marathon. I finally resorted to watching Tada kimi, Wo aishiteru, since i had reservations about watchin it after my sister's summary of the story. But seriously, it was nice, kind of like takuya kimura's A beautiful life, but in this case, the guy(tamaki hiroshi) didnt get to spend time with the girl. He didnt even know where the girl was and that she had passed away. So sad, i guess you always realise that you cant live without someone until they are taken away from you. And the girl had so many secret shots of him(since he thought he how to take pictures). You can just see that from the angles and the composition of the shots, she really loves him. Mundane things like walking or napping on the couch, so much love is in it. Ah, i dont know how else to describe it.

And then there's the European special for Nodame Cantabile live action. Haha, my chiaki senpai kissed Nodame. He had that so full of love face, like he's about to blow up due to the overwhelming love he had for her. Wah lau eh, i cant belive im writing all this stuff. Anyway, the finale for this special was that he finally went into the Hentai forest, which meant into Nodame's world. hahah, my goodness, i didnt know Nodame has a foot fetish.

But i feel frustrated with Chiaki, he can be so self centered that he forgets Nodame is still a girl, his girl. Haiz, when is he going to give her the necklace? And when are they showing the 2nd season???????

Watching these movies/drama makes me wonder whether these type of stories do exist in real life. Maybe its all just fairytale.