Hey

Please dont rain!!! It was so beautiful yesterday. I dont want it to be raining cos i'll be gloomy...

over

I love it when its sunny. It reminds me of the simple days when no one would ask me questions like 'How's your concept?' or 'Have you printed your panels?'. It reminds me of days where i dont have to think of what to wear to school or what to do in school.

So, its all over and i have a nagging thought that i will get viva. Why? Because im cursed. When its time to wrap things up, i will usually screw it up by being in limbo until the very end. And when i wake up, i cant remember what i did and i cant do anything about it. Maybe i just have short attention span. I cant do the same thing for a long time. 2 years of DID was enough to get me excited and pumped up. But the 3rd year just goes by without me feeling anything, well, except for helplessness and anguish.

Im not ready for work in this area. I guess i never will be. maybe i'll just end up on the streets, begging for alms.

Lost

I've lost. My mind and my soul. It wasn't me but its still happening. Its like im trapped in a parallel world and i can only see everything but can do nothing about it.

Not my fault. Not me. Oh crap.