for the love of Yunjae and all the beautiful men out there

OMO!!!!!! i cant stand it, there's 2pm's again and again and then there's akanishi jin's Lovejuice which really sounds like Justin timberlake's My Love. these 2 are on repeat mode all the time... im soo in love with junsu, from 2pm, not that i dont love junsu from dbsk but that's a different kind of love... anyway,he's soo super beautiful, those sleepy eyes, that snow white skin, his lips....aigooo...super droolworthy i tell u..

and i dont need to tell you that i miss yunho...i want him back in korea and on variety shows....aish, bogoshipo yunho ssi...and jae as welll...so beautiful i feel like covering my face with a brown paperbag labelled UGLY everytime i see his pictures... OMG, have u seen his pix where he was shirtless and smirking like he knows something that we dont but i bet we yunjae shippers know what it is he's hiding....GAH!!!! i was totally spazzing when i saw that pix... yati was rolling her eyes and ignoring me the whole time i was squealing like a pig.

but i think i've caught another bug, its the HoMin bug...i think we need a bit more of it. Its just that after watching AADBSK2, i realised that changmin always acts cute in small ways in front of his hyungs, especially with leader ssi.. like the part where they were doing school uniform cf and facing each other, Min pulled yunnie's shirt and then yun adjusted min's shirt and poked his tummy...aigoooo...i, i was in heaven cos they looked so cute and adorable, like real brothers and for once, changmin really looked like his age...wahhhhhhaaaaaaahahahah..

if they have mini dbsks, i'd buy them and keep them in my pocket wherever i go...which reminds me i have to do the YunJae mug...have to make it real!!!!!

ps: i guess from now on all my posts will be ramblings on korean idols and YunJae especially... wahahhaha *rushes back home to build back Yunjae archive...WEEEE*

and i thought i was strong

but i was the one who ended up crying first. it felt like a bad sci fi drama. the doctor was drawing out diagrams and talking in a kind of hushed voice and she was next to me listening intently. tears started pooling and before i know it, i was sobbing quietly like an idiot, the mother load of tears came out at the part where the doctor was explaining about the whole breast being removed for a surgery option. a nurse passed me a tissue, when she saw me desperately trying to wipe my snot with the back of my palm. its stage 1, thank goodness for that but still...

i couldnt look at her for the entire time we were in the consultation room and i didnt have any comforting words to say. i DONT know what to say. How do you comfort someone especially your loved ones after hearing news like this? it was absurd to be seeing the problem made up of diagrams on a piece of paper and scans of the cyst...seriously, its giving me a headache..im starting to