Men are all ASSHOLES!

No matter what you say, in the end, their very core is very assholic. Im soo super pissed off right now. Why are we stuck with useless men who do not appreciate what we have done, yet kept saying that we are the ones who are not helping. Da lah pelokek nak mampus, ingat pasal diri sendiri jer. I tell you im not gonna get married at all lah kan. What's the use if after marriage he turns into an ugly bastard? Sometimes i even tell myself, im not gonna feel sorry even if its over. All these times, its only sakit hati jer. We're dealing with a stubborn adolescent stuck in the body of a 47 year old man. Pathetic right? Duit nyer pasal nak ungkit2, pastu nak pinjam duit paksa pulak tu. Bile kite nak pinjam duit buat skola dulu, die beleter and made me feel like im a loser, and even made me fee like its useless living sometimes. WHAT'S THE BLOODY POINT!!!!!!!!!!!

And another one tak keje2. Da nak mampus seh. Da nak kat berape bulan tak keje2. Why even bother getting married kan? Just cos da tunang 1 tahun, kene kahwin ke? man, i'd rather jadi anak dara tua seh if the guy is unreliable like that. Tak dapat support diri sendiri, inikan pula nak support anak orang.

If i ever get married lah kan,he has to have a stable job wt gaji 3k a month or more, need to have savings set aside for the future kids education n health stuff, cant touch my money, need to give me at least $800 a month when we have kids, will let me work, WONT TOUCH MY MONEY,EVER!!!! I think i 100% agree with what some women say,

"your money is my money, my money is MY money"

if we go by this saying, we will save the heartaches, the fights and also the money.. haiz...

waahahahahahha

WAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHHAHHAHHAHH!!!!!!! Im sorry, im laughing out of glee and excitement. i can read the gakuen Alice manga at mangafox.com.......HAHHAHAHHAHHHAHHHHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAH

So top priority on my to get list is....
1) Gakuen Alice manga
2) Ouran High manga
3) the ting tings and N.E.R.D cd


so ciao i wanna sambung bace, now at Vol 8 chapter 41..teehee...

P.s: I want naru sensei...;p

Live life to the max, baby!!!!!!!!!!!

You know what?? Opportunities only comes once, and most of the time people have to look for it or create it themselves in order for them to make a difference in their lives. How come i dont ever feel the pressure to make changes or to be in the spotlight (in a good way)? Why do i always let things slip by only to realise 2 seconds later, that speaking up loudly would've gotten me a step closer to whatever that lies ahead for me (super stardom??LOL)

I think im too carefree/bo chap/laidback in a sense that i've left all my dreams back during my early secondary school days. Even in poly, there was the need to compete with peers but it always left me feeling insecure at the end of the day. With thoughts like 'Even if i study hard, is there any chance 'i'll get to study design overseas?' or 'im not talented at all, why should i do this crap', etc,etc.

Listening to boss just now, i cant help but thank her for everything. The belief that she had in me, the trust and responsibility that she's given and the chances that she has carved out for me these past 2 years, is just immense. And how do i repay her? When things go wrong and i dont know what to do, i retreat into my defense zone and try to find easy way out. Yes, i can be selfish sometimes, Believe it. And when she talked about the scenario where if one day i am capable enough to go to Moscow-or any other european countries to meet clients for meetings on her behalf, i just kind of swelled inside. And i felt a glimmer of hope, no, more like a dream rekindled? Am i even making sense here?

Anyway, what im saying is, in order to be in that position to lead and travel and stuff, im going to make a resolution.

I will start back fresh, to treat every new project with the same kind of excitement and enthusiasm as when i did my first solo project. Even when the people in the team can be major arseholes most of the time, even when they create animosity, i will fight for my right to design. im giving myself one year, cos i really need to study back on the FSSD, the coordination, and also M&E stuff since im the leading beyotch for team Singapore. You know lah, im not really that bright in the brains dept (im not stupid either tau!). And i need to read a lot and experience a few more big solo projects(2 more i think).

Budget terminal proj has really opened my eyes, Im clueless on the submission issues and M&E stuff, so paiseh when landlord ask about this, i always get away with "i'll get back to you asap on this". Yeah, i know, for how long are people gonna buy that shite right? Anyway, i need to work smarter. It's gonna be a hell of a ride again in Sept once most of the projects kick off and im not gonna go home at 9 anymore, 8pm is the latest(unless we've got submission lah).

And im sooo looking forward to this new hotel project..teehee...we'll be designing the office and service apartments and i soo wanna handle this project. Cos boss passed me the plans and briefed me on what to do. Woohooo, a project that is not F&B related. I can die of excitement now..heh. I remembered what i said when we were doing role playing during those english classes in poly, when the lecturer asked me what i thought of problems and how to handle it, i responded by saying 'i dont think of them as problems but more as challenges that everyone has to face up to'.

Now, why was i so smart last time?

sing la la la

you know what?? i am in love, again. who?

IKUTO-sama!!!!! Aishiteru!!!!!! Kesian eh, im falling in love with an anime character, from Shogu chara. tsk, tsk,tskk....i think its high time i seriously start to find my other half. Dont want to end up like what a guy friend once said, "today you're 22, the next thing you know, you're 30 and you're still single". Or something like that lah. That and im tired of Her highness' constant "so, have you find a bf?", "R u hiding a bf?",etc,etc. Even her mum has taken an interest in this issue.Haiz..

And also im finding that life gets very boring now, with friends and cousins working and stuff, it'd be nice to share or spread this craziness to someone new.

So, apakah ciri-ciri lelaki idaman Miss D?

1) Someone like Halu or Chiaki-senpai. If you think im talking gibberish, the former is takuya kimura in Pride and the latter is Tamaki hiroshi in Nodame. So this means im just pathetic. By the way, have you seen Takuya-kun's Gatsby cm?? The one where he's wearing an unbuttoned shirt and he's spraying that deodorant all over his naked torso??????????? Haiz...everytime i watch, i feel like my jaws just dropped to the floor and im drooling. Nevermind that im in public at Chop Ah chai's shop wt lots of other male species at the back (watching from small tv) or im at home with the sisters watching tv as well.

In those instances i (a)felt like hugging and licking the tv, (b) wished i was the shirt Takuya-kun was wearing and (c)WISH I WAS THE DEODORANT HE WAS SPRAYING ONTO HIS BODY!!!!!!!!!Hahahah..droolz....i dont care who's reading, i just had to get this out of my system.

Ciri-ciri no 2? Hmm,..dahlah, malas,the first one sums up everything. This sunday i need to follow mum go to her anak angkat's wedding. Now here's my chance to wash eye and lookout for potential Takuya...wahaha(this is an evil laughter by the way)

NANI???????!!!!!!

i am utterly disappointed. totally kecewa, hampa dan yang sewaktu dengannye... i cant believe that the morita senpai for Honey & Clover Live action is sooooo not cute.. I mean that guy doesnt even have the essence of Morita. As in crazy, random, kooky, loud, boisterous, obnoxious..etc. Yes, i only watched a few mins of the first epi but really lah, i cant feel the MORITA essence. And then they had Ikota Toma play takemoto...what the...nothing bad but takemoto is not suppose to be that drop dead cute k..yamashita from nobuta wo produce would be great as Morita and takemoto would be hmm..ahhhh, that guy from Gokusen 2, the decent looking one who always have a knack of wearing hair clips...

oooo....finished watching Itazura Na kiss....nyehehehehe...kawaii ne...Irie is cute. But i cant find the live action in jap version, so im settling for the taiwanese version now..though i dont really see the point in doing this since its a TOTAL COPY of the anime. maybe im just purposely wasting my time?? watever, it gets so boring nowadays..

Am I in limbo?

Yeah, i guess i am in limbo. But tomorrow onwards, its full swing baybeh!!

Guess nobody's reading but who gives a hoot anyhoo, i am currently...

1) Still in my 'i want char kway teow' mode, though sushi has been on and off appearing in my dreams.

2) Still obsessed with 'We got married'. FYI, its a korean 'reality' tv show. My fave couple?? of course the mania couple, Crown J and In Young.. 'too much~~ A~~' Too cute lah dey..this is how REAL couples should be like, shouting at each other and totally comfortable with it.

3) ANIME is the only thing im watching these days. So crunchyroll is THE BEST site so far to go. Gakuen Alice is so so kawaii that i cant stop saying kawaii every 2 minutes. Coming from me, that's really something you see.

4) So in love with MORITA senpai!!!!!! Crazy, random,whacked out dude in Honey & Clover, really good show on friendship, not good enough to reduce me to tears since it was so slow.

5) STILL loving my week old hairdo!!! Yes, im such a vain, narcissistic beyotch. Eh, i cant help it if im cute right? hehehe.

Right, now i need to plan what to do to dress up this dusty place. Ciao nonexistent readers...wahahaha

hey ho, hey ho...

yeh im back..the past 3 days were horrible cos i had high fever on tuesday, 38.8 degrees...yes i know im HOT..;p Anyway, waited for 2 fucking hours at the private clinic near the pasar. Bloody hell it was only 9am but it was packed with construction workers,etc,etc. And we had to sit on those stupid plastic waiting chairs which just made my muscles scream out for me to lie down on the cold hard floor instead. I felt like crying lah, cos all my energy was being sucked out of me. Everything and everyone in the clinic was pissing me off like hell. And to complete the stupid experience, the pharmacist typed my name wrongly. Adeke patut die type nama bangla mane as my dad's name. WTF right, YOU are holding onto MY IC, and yet you still type wrongly. Bloody kanasai. This is why i hate getting sick, because going to the clinic just to get MC and $30 worth of medicine is really not worth it, especially when it comes with these kinds of experiences.

oh, oh, i've had a haircut, wanted the nodame kind of hairstyle but since my hair still has the layered effect, had to settle for something else. Now i think i look like ASTROBOY!!!! haha, yar rite, but i really love this look, makes my face looks cuter...LOL!!! actually, wanna follow InYoung's hairstyle but her hair macam wig gitu and its super straight lor.. 4th sis went so far as to say i look like yakuza, actually she said kazuya with a straight face which made us laugh even louder...