Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (girly girl scream)
Guess who i am in love with right now? No, you dont know? Its, its, its that korean hottie from My Girl series. Yeah, i know that was last year's show but bloody hell that Lee Dong Wook is super duper cute. His lips are soo kissable. Yeah, i know im gushing over him like mad and you might want to puke after reading this but i cant help it. He's sooo dreamy. And those lips makes you blush, its red and pretty like a girls lips. Makes me jealous and hooked on him at the same time.
So if you ask me, what do i want for my birthday this year, NO its not chocolate.
A kiss from Lee Dong Wook would be so sooo FINE. Hahahahahaha
Yeah, dream on Di... Sigh..........i love you, Lee Dong Wook... im serious.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Im turning 21 next week, and it feels like nothing actually, that is until she asked me this question last night, a few minutes before we had dinner at our usual makan place.
MD: Have you ever been in love?
Moi: Err..no... (oh no, not this conversation again..)
MD: Really? You've never been in love?
Moi: No... (in a resigned voice)
MD: You're turning 21 next week and you've never been in love? What about crushes? Have you had them?
Moi: Yeah, in high school...(HAIZ......)
And it made me think. About love. What is love? Love is affection, attraction. Are my feelings for him love? Nope, not really, i think its more on infatuation. Infatuation, is a foolish or extravagant admiration towards someone. Hah, if i tell her about this, she will definitely think im super dee duper weird, weirder than what i am right now. All thanks to bapak lah. He just had to make it seem like im from another dimension. Now she really believes that im weird. Im not weird kay, just, different. Maybe i will strangle his neck when i see him on monday, at the new school of design launch. Oooooh, i hope lehning will be there..I miss his cute, brooding, sulky, thinking ,frowning face...hehehehe.. eheheheh.... ;p
Anyway, I had quite a shock on tuesday, when i received an sms that Ayah was admitted to NUH. Went straight to NUH after work, kelam kabut aku naik teksi dari bouna vista. Found out that he almost had stroke, his hands were seba and his mouth dah macam senget. So he had to go for xray and some other tests. I hope nothing's wrong with him. He has the largest family (5 kids), he's the funny one, the one who likes all the family members to get together for gatherings and the one who gets along well with my dad. He's mum's younger brother, a year apart and that makes them close. Both of their immune system are not that good, senang sakit lah both of them, and kalau dorang sakit, mesti sakit teruk. Hmm, family ties, however hard you try to break the bond, you cant deny the fact that its still there wherever you go. Eh? What the hell am i blabbering about?
So im still high on Muse, have been listening to them on my mp3 non stop since the gig. I need new music. By the way, where the hell has Linkin Park gone to? I miss Chester's voice and his cute face. Have they disbanded or something? Haiz, what a waste.
Ahh, i forgot to add that she asked me what kind of guy i would fall for. She'd like to interview him before he can date me..ahaha. I think im really popular (yelah tu..) since everyone wants to be the first one to be introduced to the guy, except for my parents lah. Hehe, wait long2 people, it will take a few more years. If i found the right one, i straight away kawin lah....Hahahahaha. But its funny that my mum doesnt ask me which type of guy i like. She only asked if i wanted a grand wedding or if im ok if my sisters get married before i do (which is fine by me actually). Or maybe she already knows yet she doesnt want to tell me that she does. Hmmmm..
Haiz...I know its quite early to be thinking about this, but what do i wish for, for my birthday? I still dont know yet. I have this problem every year that day comes near. And every year, i never wished for anything for myself. But i bet that turning a year older will not make much of a difference to how i feel, talk or behave.
And teng teng, if you're reading this, i want to say that im abit shocked by what you wrote back. Well, not shocked, more like jolted back to earth. I, myself sometimes do not know what i am sad or angry about. Sad isnt it?
Maybe i AM going crazy.
MD: Have you ever been in love?
Moi: Err..no... (oh no, not this conversation again..)
MD: Really? You've never been in love?
Moi: No... (in a resigned voice)
MD: You're turning 21 next week and you've never been in love? What about crushes? Have you had them?
Moi: Yeah, in high school...(HAIZ......)
And it made me think. About love. What is love? Love is affection, attraction. Are my feelings for him love? Nope, not really, i think its more on infatuation. Infatuation, is a foolish or extravagant admiration towards someone. Hah, if i tell her about this, she will definitely think im super dee duper weird, weirder than what i am right now. All thanks to bapak lah. He just had to make it seem like im from another dimension. Now she really believes that im weird. Im not weird kay, just, different. Maybe i will strangle his neck when i see him on monday, at the new school of design launch. Oooooh, i hope lehning will be there..I miss his cute, brooding, sulky, thinking ,frowning face...hehehehe.. eheheheh.... ;p
Anyway, I had quite a shock on tuesday, when i received an sms that Ayah was admitted to NUH. Went straight to NUH after work, kelam kabut aku naik teksi dari bouna vista. Found out that he almost had stroke, his hands were seba and his mouth dah macam senget. So he had to go for xray and some other tests. I hope nothing's wrong with him. He has the largest family (5 kids), he's the funny one, the one who likes all the family members to get together for gatherings and the one who gets along well with my dad. He's mum's younger brother, a year apart and that makes them close. Both of their immune system are not that good, senang sakit lah both of them, and kalau dorang sakit, mesti sakit teruk. Hmm, family ties, however hard you try to break the bond, you cant deny the fact that its still there wherever you go. Eh? What the hell am i blabbering about?
So im still high on Muse, have been listening to them on my mp3 non stop since the gig. I need new music. By the way, where the hell has Linkin Park gone to? I miss Chester's voice and his cute face. Have they disbanded or something? Haiz, what a waste.
Ahh, i forgot to add that she asked me what kind of guy i would fall for. She'd like to interview him before he can date me..ahaha. I think im really popular (yelah tu..) since everyone wants to be the first one to be introduced to the guy, except for my parents lah. Hehe, wait long2 people, it will take a few more years. If i found the right one, i straight away kawin lah....Hahahahaha. But its funny that my mum doesnt ask me which type of guy i like. She only asked if i wanted a grand wedding or if im ok if my sisters get married before i do (which is fine by me actually). Or maybe she already knows yet she doesnt want to tell me that she does. Hmmmm..
Haiz...I know its quite early to be thinking about this, but what do i wish for, for my birthday? I still dont know yet. I have this problem every year that day comes near. And every year, i never wished for anything for myself. But i bet that turning a year older will not make much of a difference to how i feel, talk or behave.
And teng teng, if you're reading this, i want to say that im abit shocked by what you wrote back. Well, not shocked, more like jolted back to earth. I, myself sometimes do not know what i am sad or angry about. Sad isnt it?
Maybe i AM going crazy.
Monday, January 22, 2007
Spent my weekend catching up on lost sleep, and eating 3 full meals a day. And now, im feeling lethargic and still tired. My muscles are aching, dont ask why, the cold weather always does this to me. Norain would be saying that im like an old lady, with athritis or rheumatism or whatever shit lah.
Have you ever felt those days where you start it off feeling like you can conquer the world, but when it reaches noon, you felt like you cant do anything right? It was like that today, one minute im happy and the next, it feels like all is crap.
I dont feel like going home, yet i want to go home and just be wrapped up in the comforts of home. Maybe its time to continue writing in, yeah, i've said this a hundred times but then everytime i want to write, it feels so painful. There's soo much to write about but i dont know where to start. Maybe, im afraid that when i start, i would not be able to stop.
Yeah, yeah, im not making sense. Do we all make sense in the first place??
Have you ever felt those days where you start it off feeling like you can conquer the world, but when it reaches noon, you felt like you cant do anything right? It was like that today, one minute im happy and the next, it feels like all is crap.
I dont feel like going home, yet i want to go home and just be wrapped up in the comforts of home. Maybe its time to continue writing in, yeah, i've said this a hundred times but then everytime i want to write, it feels so painful. There's soo much to write about but i dont know where to start. Maybe, im afraid that when i start, i would not be able to stop.
Yeah, yeah, im not making sense. Do we all make sense in the first place??
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
MY GOD!!!!!! Yesterday has got to be the most craziest day of my life. Well, not really, there had been crazier days but this was fucking awesome. So i went to Muse's gig after work. My very first gig ever and i was carying my large green tote bag with me, and it was full of working papers and shit. No time to go back home and change bag lah. Anyway, we reached fort canning park at around 7.30pm i think, since we got lost due to the wrong directions that marinah gave us. The place was already crowded and we slipped our way through to the middle section to get to marinah, her bf and her sis. And then we waited, and waited, as well as slowly inching our way to the front. They were playing rock music and everyone was enjoying the songs. A few epople broke into fights, because some bloody assholes forcefully squeezed into the middle section. hello, we paid the same ticket price, if you're late, dont pretend as if you're a star and demand to be in the front row. Jerks.
Anyway, it was bloody crowded, the place reeked of beer and smoke and people were sweating like hell. Then this sesat ang moh couple were making out next to me and norain. Seriously guys, GET A ROOM. So anyway, we managed to jostle our way and was about 1.5m away from the front railing when the gig started and people were REALLY, REALLY starting to get crazy. They started pushing around, wanting to get to the front. The left section pushed to the right and the right section pushed back and the people in the middle section (that's us) were crushed. I was soo crushed by everyone around, who by the way were as tall as marinah but bigger. There was no space to breathe and i felt my bones being crushed. It was very, very scary.I couldnt even enjoy muse's first song.
The funny thing was, i thought i would die due to suffocation, and then i thought, heck, i will not faint at ny first gig and i would definitely not want to die being crushed by a bunch of manic Muse fans. So i screamed to norain and we jostled our way out to the right side of the stage. We took deep breaths and slowly inched our way to the right railing. So we managed to get a clear view of Matthew from there. He was sooo fucking hot that i still cant believe we saw him live, in singapore. So sexy lah. HAIZZZZZ..... And his guitar playing was fucking brilliant and impressive. The drummer was also super, super hot and really worked the drums. Hoho, im still very much excited now.
To summarise the gig, it was fun except for the idiotic assholes who pushed around. But a bit of a disappointment because Muse mostly played songs from their recent album. Norain and i were seriously hoping that they sang more songs from Absolution and Muscle Museum's album since both of it totally rocks. Too bad they only played a few. And too bad most of the pictures were blurry, since my arms were aching due to all the pushing and shoving. But norain captured the performance for the butterflies and hurricanes song if im not wrong.
Hehehe, i cant wait for other cool bands to perform in singapore. Save money, save money, save money...Woohooo. I love Muse...:)
Anyway, it was bloody crowded, the place reeked of beer and smoke and people were sweating like hell. Then this sesat ang moh couple were making out next to me and norain. Seriously guys, GET A ROOM. So anyway, we managed to jostle our way and was about 1.5m away from the front railing when the gig started and people were REALLY, REALLY starting to get crazy. They started pushing around, wanting to get to the front. The left section pushed to the right and the right section pushed back and the people in the middle section (that's us) were crushed. I was soo crushed by everyone around, who by the way were as tall as marinah but bigger. There was no space to breathe and i felt my bones being crushed. It was very, very scary.I couldnt even enjoy muse's first song.
The funny thing was, i thought i would die due to suffocation, and then i thought, heck, i will not faint at ny first gig and i would definitely not want to die being crushed by a bunch of manic Muse fans. So i screamed to norain and we jostled our way out to the right side of the stage. We took deep breaths and slowly inched our way to the right railing. So we managed to get a clear view of Matthew from there. He was sooo fucking hot that i still cant believe we saw him live, in singapore. So sexy lah. HAIZZZZZ..... And his guitar playing was fucking brilliant and impressive. The drummer was also super, super hot and really worked the drums. Hoho, im still very much excited now.
To summarise the gig, it was fun except for the idiotic assholes who pushed around. But a bit of a disappointment because Muse mostly played songs from their recent album. Norain and i were seriously hoping that they sang more songs from Absolution and Muscle Museum's album since both of it totally rocks. Too bad they only played a few. And too bad most of the pictures were blurry, since my arms were aching due to all the pushing and shoving. But norain captured the performance for the butterflies and hurricanes song if im not wrong.
Hehehe, i cant wait for other cool bands to perform in singapore. Save money, save money, save money...Woohooo. I love Muse...:)
Friday, January 12, 2007
Its been a hectic week. I feel as if i've worked non stop ever since i started work last year. I want to blog more on this but then, it will just turn out like im a spoiled brat, or that i complain too much. So much for pouring my heart out through blogging.
And i've been having these flashbacks of my dreams, everytime im on my way to work. Its like a slideshow, but kind of like a movie trailer. It appears in a few seconds and then it disappears, i cant remember it anymore. Aneh kan? I think the human mind is intangible, our thoughts are like air.
and to add to this weirdness, i have these dark thoughts too. Its kind of freaky, since it involves accidents and ..... i think i'll spare myself the details here, too disturbing.
i wonder when im going to quit and start something totally new, something totally unrelated to design. Yeah, i did say something about design being my calling but somehow, after being exposed to all kinds of 'challenges', be it facing two faced bastards, idiotic assholes, demanding jerks and pushy bitches, i've become tired, of all this. I dont need all this, i dont need to be rushing for deadlines, or trying to psycho people or being nice to them when i dont want to be nice in the first place. Everything i say counts, even my facial expression counts, damn, its always been about my facial expression, ever since secondary school.
Im tired of people judging me, its so idiotic lah i tell you. And im tired of talking to these old people. Its them against me, our world is totally way off, me from planet young adult and them planet old farts.
haiz, i wish i could see you again. Just to see that smile, makes me feel a bit happier and my burden feels a bit lessened.. A bit lah.
And i've been having these flashbacks of my dreams, everytime im on my way to work. Its like a slideshow, but kind of like a movie trailer. It appears in a few seconds and then it disappears, i cant remember it anymore. Aneh kan? I think the human mind is intangible, our thoughts are like air.
and to add to this weirdness, i have these dark thoughts too. Its kind of freaky, since it involves accidents and ..... i think i'll spare myself the details here, too disturbing.
i wonder when im going to quit and start something totally new, something totally unrelated to design. Yeah, i did say something about design being my calling but somehow, after being exposed to all kinds of 'challenges', be it facing two faced bastards, idiotic assholes, demanding jerks and pushy bitches, i've become tired, of all this. I dont need all this, i dont need to be rushing for deadlines, or trying to psycho people or being nice to them when i dont want to be nice in the first place. Everything i say counts, even my facial expression counts, damn, its always been about my facial expression, ever since secondary school.
Im tired of people judging me, its so idiotic lah i tell you. And im tired of talking to these old people. Its them against me, our world is totally way off, me from planet young adult and them planet old farts.
haiz, i wish i could see you again. Just to see that smile, makes me feel a bit happier and my burden feels a bit lessened.. A bit lah.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Fuck lah, im soo bloody pissed off right now. I have been stuck doing the fucking 2d working dwgs (full set lagi) since monday. The fucking piece of asshole of a project manager went for his NS and now i have to finish it off. We were suppose to share the bloody workload but then the butthead did the RCP semberono aje and its not even correct. My god, i felt like strangling him right now. SOOO PISSED OFFF. He even said that im saboing him by asking him to do up the RCP at the last minute. Hello you idiot, i have been asking for it from you since last week and you kept saying that you've sent over. But its not sent over at all. And everytime i plan for an internal office meeting with big boss, you always cant make it. You're not the only one who's busy in this world!!! AND HOW MANY BLOODY TIMES MUST I TELL YOU NOT TO HAVE THE LIGHTING IN STRAIGHT MODULAR????!!! You're a fucking architect, you took a bloody degree in architecture, you should bloody well know better than me what to detail, draw up, what's the standard, and blah, blah, blah. Fucking bastard seh.
I should be getting your pay you idiot, for this ongoing project at clarke quay, the dwgs are also done by me. The fucking sections that you did werent even detailed. You always wait for me to tell you the material, details and stuff when it is YOU who should be in the office, with me, going through the dwgs and materials and proposing to me the details, not the other way round. ARGH!!!!!
I have a lot of backlog for other projects, im going to die, clarke quay project is going to turn out like a piece of crap. And then everyone will blame it on me for not sending things on time. HOW CAN I HANDLE THE DWGS, MATERIALS, CHAIR PROPOSALS AND ALL THAT SHIT ALONE? AND ITS NOT ONLY ONE PROJECT, ITS 3 PROJECT RIGHT NOW, INCLUDING FUCKING GRAPHICS!!!!
SOMEBODY KILL ME PLEASE. Or rather kidnap me lah...
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I should be getting your pay you idiot, for this ongoing project at clarke quay, the dwgs are also done by me. The fucking sections that you did werent even detailed. You always wait for me to tell you the material, details and stuff when it is YOU who should be in the office, with me, going through the dwgs and materials and proposing to me the details, not the other way round. ARGH!!!!!
I have a lot of backlog for other projects, im going to die, clarke quay project is going to turn out like a piece of crap. And then everyone will blame it on me for not sending things on time. HOW CAN I HANDLE THE DWGS, MATERIALS, CHAIR PROPOSALS AND ALL THAT SHIT ALONE? AND ITS NOT ONLY ONE PROJECT, ITS 3 PROJECT RIGHT NOW, INCLUDING FUCKING GRAPHICS!!!!
SOMEBODY KILL ME PLEASE. Or rather kidnap me lah...
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