im not gonna count the hours till midnight....

Yunho

My Goal for 2009
YH: First of all, I'd like to improve my Japanese-speaking ability. Also, I'd like to grow both emotionally and internally. In my private time I'd like to go to Las Vegas! I went before for work, but shooting while looking at the Grand Canyon and the wonderful scenery is something that really remains in my memories!

My Recent Favourite Item


YH: A hat I got from someone, by a brand called "Clover". When I want to look cool I use it to hide one of my eyes a little, and when I want to look cute and fashionable I push the hat to the back of my head and put on glasses. This is something I was taught by a famous fashion editor!

This Is What's Cool About Yunho!
YC: I think the part of him that properly protects his friends is really cool. I love the Yunho that treasures "a man's friendship".

JJ: He's manly! The bigness of all of Yunho's gestures and actions, that kind of thing is really cool. When he sings and when he dances, too.

JS: He's really professional and someone who will do his best and work hard for absolutely anything. I think that's wonderful.

CM: He's manly. He's a person who treasures friendship.

I Want Yunho To Stop Doing This!
YC: Lately it seems like he's been having various problems, and when he's off from work he's not with the members, but is constantly together with his friends. It makes me feel just a little lonely... I've been close to Yunho since the very beginning so I don't take it to heart, but let's contact each other a bit more. Whether it's time to have a meal or time to just talk, let's make more and more of them!

JJ: Sometimes his actions are too big, and when he talks or dances, there are times when he hits the people next to him (laughs)! Yunho totally doesn't notice. I have also been hit by him, a lot of times.

JS: The amount of things he forgets is outrageously huge~! His wallet, cellphone...there's just all sorts of stuff he quickly loses or forgets. The members worry at those times. It's fine since he always finds his things, but it's that kind of, there are so many things he forgets and loses that it's like if he loses everything he might be left with nothing.

CM: It would be good if he tidied up our room just a bit more! It's not just our room, he has this habit of messing things up anywhere he goes~

To Yunho: I Wasn't Able To Say It Before, But I Confess...
YC: Yunho invited me to have a meal with him and his friend who is a Korean entertainer. I promised I would go too, but when I got home I was really tired. I came to feel, "I'm not really in the mood..." and called him to turn him down. I'm sorry for not keeping my promise that time!

JJ: Don't talk on the phone in my bedroom! Yunho doesn't talk on the phone in his own room, he talks while going back and forth, here and there, between the other members' bedrooms and the living room and stuff. Whatever it is, in my bedroom, just don't talk on the phone there!!!!

JS: I know very well that being in the leader's position is really difficult, but...until now and in the future too, you've really done your best and will keep doing your best for Tohoshinki. I am grateful.

CM: I might look like the type of person who doesn't like tidying up, but I am extremely particular about cleanliness! Unexpectedly!! UNEXPECTEDLY!! Yunho scolds me too much for being like that. But I....can't say this to Yunho.

Source and translated by=pinkulemon.

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omomomo...this is from asianfanatics, i want to put all the rest of the member's interviews but it was so long. since yunnie ssi is my first love, i just gotta be content with this (but i've saved the full interview somewhere..kihkihkih..)

haiz....i've realised i didnt even have a new year's resolution list, which i dont really keep tab onto, so this is my birthday wish list, yar, like whatever lorh wish and resolution mcm takde kene mengene seh...

1) Learn Korean and Japanese (oral and written), this is so that i dont need to search and wait for eng subs for jap dramas and korean variety shows. (which reminds me i've yet to watch Orange days & Dororo)

2) Attend a DBSK concert, aish, i wonder if this will ever happen. I seriously wanna see the boys perform..

3) Buy DBSK photobooks/dvd especially the "vacation in Paris" one...wahlau ehh, yunjae looks super hot during that time seh..

that's all that i can think of right now, stuff like shoes, clothes, psp, etc, etc...even though i really want them, i dont really need them...at times like these, just have to use whatever i have...

oh yeah...actually there's one more thing, i wish for YunJae love to last forever (FYI, this is fangirl wish, if you think im a perv,then buzz off) Sigh, all those YunJae fanfiction still stuck in my mind till all i can think about when people talk about couples and love is YunJae...i know, but its too addictive and then the YooSu couple fanfiction...eishhh, i can just imagine the scenes in my krekot mind...aigoo.......(@__@)

ps: my baby looks so hot in just white tank top and jeans, actually with just plain jeans on (wrong number video!!) he looks super yummy...for once i want to dream of him tonight, pretty please, a pleasant one, for my birthday...PLEASE I BEG OF YOUUUUUU!!!!

pps: im so desperate im gonna read up on yunjae fanfiction in the hopes of dreaming of Yunnie baby tonight...*prays hard*

ppps: i know my mind is so krekot...so shaddup...

dont mention the p word

do you know what dying feels like? If you've ever gotten diarrhoea, then you know what dying feels like. Which reminds me, i cannot eat sweet p***** es at 4 in the morning, especially on an empty stomach.(*__*) by the way im still recovering, and if someone so much as mentions the p word, i swear to you i might just puke. i cant get rid of the taste of it whenever i burped, its like P and gas mixed together to produce a poisonous taste....urgh......

frankly speaking, i dont have the mood to blog since im still feeling like shit, so i'll just update on the overnight east coast picnic next time, with pictures. maybe.

ps: currently reading "the wallflower" manga, damn it that thing is hilarious...but the best is still Skip beat, wonder when the next scan will be online...

my heart's like a broken record...

Note to self: please refrain from checking out the boys pictures every morning before work, lest i want myself to be whining whole day trying to heal the heartache and lovesickness...i love the boys, seriously.

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He tried to wipe away the endless tears streaming down her pale face but she took a step back at his extended hand.

"Im sorry..." he said in a low voice, trying hard to suppress his tears by clenching his fists.

She kept whispering "Liar..." over and over again, all the time shaking her head from side to side. The soft breeze blowing against her silky auburn tresses made her look even more beautiful, so beautiful that its blinding him. He stepped forward but she screamed instead, "Dont touch me!!!"

"Please..." he pleaded and grabbed her shoulders. What he received was a tight slap on his left cheek which threw him off balance. As he staggered to face her, he was greeted with the most emotionless expression. She had the look of someone who had lost all hope and faith, in everything. As he opened his mouth to say something, she started laughing. She covered her mouth with her hands and kept on laughing. Stunned by her behavior, he couldn’t move at all as she walked off, leaving him with a hollow laughter which kept ringing in his ears....he dropped down to his knees and before he knew it, he was crying...

And as if to mock him for his mistakes, the sun shone even more brightly showing off the clear blue sky.

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“So this is what it feels like huh? being shot in the chest..” she thought to herself.

She clutched her chest. Right now there was a gaping hole at where her heart should be. She looked up at him, his red eyes searching for forgiveness in hers. But all she could do was to repeat that word over and over again. That was all that she wanted to say to him.

“Liar, liar, liar…”

After slapping him, causing the tall man to stagger back, she felt numb. There was no disappointment, no hope, no faith, and no anger. None of that existed anymore for her. It was empty, and because of that emptiness, she laughed. She laughed till her cheeks hurt, till those useless bitter tears run down her face for the nth time. Once again, the world around her blurs away. Her feet started moving, away from him.

And on that bright cheerful Sunday morning, the vivid colors of the scenery before her turned to dark hues of grey.

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in a stupor

ahhh, ottokeh???? too hot, nosebleeds.....
Jae's bday in 3 days time!!!

photo credits: 2uangles + DNBN + ....crap i always forgot to take note

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the office is in a mess right now, well, actually only the surrounding 1.5m radius around me lah..hah..materials, design books, catalogues, dwgs...u name it, i got it baby..

somewhere earlier this week, i suddenly realised that my left hand (from my elbow to my fingertips) were numb. maybe i leaned too much on my left arm when i do work or when surfing the net. Im starting to wonder whether this happened earlier than when i realised it. its annoying because it feels like my hand is sleeping, its numb-er (is this even grammatically correct?) especially for my pinky and ring finger, feels like they're not mine at all. scary lah i tell you......*__*..maybe should go for checkup??

and these 2 weeks i've been really, really into baek ji youngs' like being shot. Frankly speaking, i thought it was too bleagh when i first listened to it, but when i heard it a few more times, it grew on me, the melody has a bit of faith hill's feel to it. Like being shot, what a powerful song title, sums up all the pain, etc,etc...i dont know how it feels like to break up so i can just imagine it. aish, this song keeps replaying over and over again in my head.

but love, love hurts right? even though its only fan-girl love but..whenever i see their pictures, i feel like...laughing and crying at the same time. Yesh, P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C. but i cant help it, they're just too beautiful, especially YunJae. im embarrassed to admit it but when i saw the YunJae gifs of making Bolero, i blushed. I blushed so hard till i had to cover my face, even though no one is with me...aigoo, im going crazy.....as per mirotic's lyrics..neon naege michyeo~~~

maybe because the smiles that were exchanged were the sweetest ones, its as if time stood still when i saw the looks in their eyes...~~~, ahhh..these fleeting moments make you feel like flying~~

down, down down we go.

Romaji Like Being Hit By A Bullet

chong majun kotcheorom jeongshinee neomu obshi
ooseumman nawaseo keunyang ooseoseo keunyang ooseosseo keunyang
heotalhakeh oosumyeo hanaman moodja haesseo
uri wae hyeohjyeo oddeokeh hyeohjyeo oddeokeh hyeohjyeo
oddeokeh

goomongnan gaseumeh uri chookee heulleo nomchyeo
jababoryeo haedo gaseumuel magado
sonkarak sa eero bbajyeonaka
shimjangee meomchyeodo eereoke ahpuel got gatjin anha
oddeokeh jom haejyeo nal jom chiryohaejyo
eeroda nae gaseum da manggachyeo
goomongnan gaseumee

oneusae noonmoori nado moreugeh heulleo
eerogi shireunde jeongmal shireunde jeongmal shireunde jeongmal
irosoneun neol ddara moojakjeong chocha kasseo
domangchideut kotnun noeui dwiyeseo noeui dwiyeseo
sorichyeosseo

goomongnan gaseume uri chookee heulleo nom chyeo
jababoryeo haedo gaseumeul magado
songarak saeero bbajyeonaga
shimjangee momchyeodo eereoke ahpeul kot gatjin anha
oddeokeh jeom haejyeo nal jeom chiryeohaejyeo
eeroda nae gaseum da mangkachyeo
chong majeun kotchoreom jeongmal kaseumee neomu ahpa
eereoke ahpuende eereoke ahpuende
sal sooga eetdanun geh eesanghae
oddeokeh noreul eejeo naega keuron keot naneun meolla meolla
kaseumee bbong ddeuryeo chaeool soo obseoseo
jooguel malgeum ahpuegiman hae
chong majeun kotchoreom

OMG,seriously........

photocredits: 2uangels & mrtvxq.com

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yeah, like, seriously, those 2 looking at each other and licking their lips (omg, i sound like a perv here), how can you say there's nothing going on..?

yeah, yeah, im blowing things out of proportion, but let me just savour the fleeting sweetness of YunJae lovin even though its only in my (and all those yunjae fangirls) mind.

seriously, im losing my mind here. geez, why do i sound like an airhead? too much spazzzing i guess. overdose on junsu maybe, since i've been trying to design a cute junsu banner for 4th sis blog...ahh im so proud of my black junsu and my yunjae banner...feeel the looove babyyy...

*staring, staring, staring....GONE

i know this picture is quite old but everytime i look at it, it felt like my heart was squeezed like a lemon,my soul sucked out, soaked in chocolate fudge,covered with thousand island and puffy white marshmellow and.and.and.shoved back in again with fluffy pink,purple and blue cotton candy.

yeah, that's how happy i get.^__^

*screams, covers grinning mouth while shaking head non stop and jumping up and down

photo credits: i think it should be 2uangels, asianfanatics, tvxq, sorry if i got it wrong.

ps: my post title says it all, i dont feel the need to elaborate.
*runs off to gawk at more yunjae love*

here we go again baybeeeh

photo credits=DNBN, 2uangels (sorry i forgot the other source)
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huh? what? oh yeah, today's post actually, nothing to write about lah. life is still monotonous and mundane with the exception of my daily dose of jap drama and korean music (from midnight to wee hours of the morning) Seriously man, i have to get a REAL life.

And why the hell are young kids asking me to add them in msn? this is like the 2nd time. The thing that really pisses me off is their internet language. For god's sake, please lah, you wont die if you type the words in full. And then they have the eu=you kind of crap and they take out all the vowels from the words. Why do you think the vowels were invented? its so we can use them lah idiots. I know i sound like an old auntie but really..ahh,its depressing when ppl want to get to know me but i get all disinterested. maybe i am anti social after all. maybe i just cant stand the stupid internet language now. erghhh..

on a sidenote, watched Lunch Queen, satoshi tsumabuki looks sooo much like Minho (SHINee), im falling for him now, satoshi not Minho ok..and Eita acted a small part in that as well. oh well, i have to remind myself to watch Dororo & Orange days (satoshi's in it as well haha)

i am only human....

OMFS, why oh why do they have to torment me so? You see those pics earlier on? the boys in white suits are killing me softly. How can they look so good in that? Even though i cant stand the pastel colored shirts they're wearing, they still look so damn good. Especially Min, look at those legs that seem to go on forever...GAWD...And then jae touching Min and min looking at whatever he is looking at...grrr..then junsu holding jae's arms...ergh, why isnt it yunho holding jae's arms?? And then jae's face, the eyes, the lips, the nose, the hair screaming out sexy yuki!!!!! And last but not least Yunho ssi, aish, how come he looks so alone in the group pix, like i said jae should be holding his arm instead....

why oh why??? i have been sucked into this hole and i cant turn back...haiz...sadness seh..

by the way, i read Totto chan, the girl sitting by the window. It was amusing, and i kept laughing to myself on the train as i read it. I really felt happy reading it, felt lighthearted as well. Reading about Totto chan's adventures makes me wish i had a childhood like hers.

anyway, tonight, im not going to read fanfiction, im not going to read fanfiction (repeats 1000 times over and over again)

photo credits: hahaha4u.co.kr, DNBN, 2uangels.blogspot.com

OMO!!!!

ok, this is kind of bad news, read on asianfanatics that Yunho, Rain and Taemin are infringing copyright issues due to the illegal use of Justin's song, Magic, for their SBS Gayo Daejun performances. WAE??? How can they not know the song was leaked online? As much as i loved the performances (especially Yunho's dance, so HOT), its still unbelievable that this can happen. What happened to the Pds, editors or those music directors of SBS? Not doing their job properly isit? Wahlau eh...poor yunnie, i hope it wasnt him who directly took the song..

and oooh, jaejoong news, the premise for his drama HEavenly Postman, is about him (Yuu,omg,its like short term for Yuki in fruits basket,what an uncanny coincidence since i think he looks sooo much like that character!!!!) being in a coma after an accident and then was given 2 weeks extra life as Heaven's postman, connecting real world and the dead. But the thing is, only the female protagonist,Hyo Joo(Saki) can see him. Erghhh, i cant wait for it to air. Jae is so hot, that aura surrounding him is so incredible, dont you think so. A lot of cassies would totally agree with me...muahaha, but yunnie is still the best. Alah yunjae is the best lah, since i cant decide on one...Hah

So, still hooked on fanfiction, especially the ones starring yunnie or jae, or sometimes those yaoi ones starring yunjae. No im not a pervert but what if in real life they are like that huh? i.cant.imagine.it!!!!!!!!! i hope these boys find soulmates soon, so that i can move on. i bet if other fans read this i might get cursed upside down..hahaha

kanasai, i wanted to put yunjae pix but blogger has stupid errors...haiz..next time then..

hello 2009

well, new years day was spent at my aunt's house,eating, karaokeing and celebrating a cousin's bday. Yeah, for once, i actually sang a few songs. My suara emas(golden voice) cannot be used so carelessly..HAHA. I think its been a few years since i karaoke in front of people, excluding my mum and sisters lah. I dont know, i just hate the way my voice sounds when i karaoke, its like its someone else's voice. Maybe im just paranoid but i feel like the more i karaoke, the more i lose the 'Me' in my voice, like losing posession of my voice. Argh i dont know how to describe it. like my essence is slowly dissipating from my voice, in turn making it a voice from another being. wait, am i making sense here??!!

im tired mentally, things are happening even though they look like they dont. we are waiting for a timebomb to explode. On the surface it looks calm but underneath, you dont know how strong the current is. AS much as i'd like to confide in someone, i cant stand the thought that it will really come true if i say it out loud. It seems like we are walking down the same road that others have taken. Are we meant to end up like that? everytime i think about this, sadness grips like a vice when this impending reality sinks in. maybe we need to lose something in order to gain something else? Well, nothing is for free right?

on a sidenote, even though i've blogged about this before, i've never believed in marriages. Never can i understand how 2 people from different backgrounds can decide to live together. Love i can understand (well, im sceptical of this as well) but marriage? Pfftt...pish posh...

aish im tired, need to sleep for awhile before i continue on the revised elevation, due later today before noon, can you believe it??...blahdy kanasai...

sometimes im too happy and sometimes im too depressed over the smallest things. but the latter i try to hide it so that only i can experience. Happines should be shared, even though being happy is just to make myself forget. But what is it that i want to forget?