hum hum ho

Hmmmm....

We used to talk a lot but today, you're silent
Why?
Are you forsaking me?
Are you going to leave me,
lost and confused?

Yup, im talking to myself again. My alter ego has left me to fend for myself. Alone. No ideas or words of wisdom, not even a goodbye or a sneer. She's walked away many times before but with ideas which saved me from all this shit. Now im stuck in the muck and there she goes, running of to La La Land. Without me. Damn it. Thanks a lot, di.

Yeah, yeah, i know im sick, talking to myself... but it beats stuffing my face with food right??

bebebebe

Strangeways,here we come

Yup, i know its lame but the Smiths album title just sums up the beginning of the end. Checked my grades and not surprisingly, i got d+ for all the 3 modules. Hmmm..what do you think of that? Am i sad? No, im a bit disappointed actually, with myself.

Submission is next tues at 3 pm. Nice. That's all i can say. Presentation panels, so it means i've got to render by hand. F. I knew i shouldn't have gone for the kendarat on sunday. Im still jaded.

Strange, real strange. The end is near but still im asking myself if this is what i really want. Am i really happy, wait, let me rephrase that, am i satisfied with the direction that im going (which direction???)? Im spacing out when its obvious that im running out of time. So what's wrong?

By the way, I dont know why i keep thinking of London. What's so great about it? I think Barcelona is better... hehe

sleepy

Sleepy. Very,very sleepy.

and the end is very,very near.

HAIZzzzzzz.......

hm

Monday, 4 Dec, 8 pm

Its funny how you can feel detached from this world even when you are in a crowded place. Like all the bustling and the incessant chatter all around is just a blur, a noisy blur. You walk back home, not out of your own free will but because your feet has been programmed to go back home. Your mind zooms in and out, out of where? Scan through the crowd. People walking and talking, but it does not make sense. Stand there and wait. Zoom out and they are just clusters of noise and rubbish. Stand there and smile, you creep.

9.40 pm

Yawn.. Yes Im very sleepy. I cant believe that I’m doing my cad dwgs, at home, on the computer. Whats the big deal right? Well, its been two whole months since Ive done school work on the computer, thats why. Laziness has spread to my bones and brains. My mind is telling me to get off the computer and watch tv. Need.. To.. Watch.. MTV.. Finally, project runway is on. Ciao.

soad

QUESTION!

Sweet berries ready for two

Ghosts are no different than you

Ghosts are now waiting for you

Are you

Are you dreaming
Dreaming the night

Dreaming all right
Do we, do we know

When we fly

When we, when we go

Do we die

These are just chunks of soad's song, question. Betcha the words will still be ringing in my ears when i work tomorrow. I guess my boss is back from wherever she's been.Heard from cherry that she's gone blond...Ooooh...i cant imagine how she looks like...

Another stamping session at 4pm (i guess) by lehn. I hate it. I haven't completed my elevations and my plan still looks weird. So much to do and i feel lost. There's the ceiling treatment, the lighting, the curtains...etc,etc...HAIZzzzzz.....someone kill me now...no, i take that back...

Cheh, i've nothing else to write about...im not going to 'wallow in self pity' (a quote from a friend of mine) like someone i know..hehe. I'd rather sleep and dream of LaLa Land.Ciao.

P.S: arsenal vs bolton(i think) sat nite at 10 plus...i-must-remember...