stupid people...

i tell you, if looks could kill, a lot of dead bodies would be left on the road at jurong east yesterday. Bloody hell those assholes DO NOT KNOW HOW TO WALK STRAIGHT. Damn it. And those people who get off from the MIDDLE PLATFORM AT JURONG EAST, PLEASE DO NOT F***ING PUSH/SHOVE/SLIDE YOUR WAY INTO THE TRAIN. THIS IS NOT YOUR ANCESTORS TRAIN!!!!!! Its not like that train is the last one for the day right? its only 8 plus freaking am for god's sake..argh...

I dont know why our fellow singaporeans have to be so inconsiderate, especially at the train stations. Excuse me, people are tying to alight, please give way lah idiots. Come on people, use your brain, if you dont want people to push you, then please dont push others. And these inconsiderate mindless assholes, are our aunties, uncles, mums, dads and even grandpas and grandmas. Damn, these are adults who keep advising us not to be rude and stuff but here they are, showing us how selfish they can be.

I know im considered an adult now but it seems like i'd rather stay a teenager then be an adult singaporean who is selfish, inconsiderate, etc, etc..

What's the purpose of having those be considerate campaigns,etc,etc in the first place?

OH, oh, I have a brilliant idea. Why dont 'those people up there' install a kind of invisible barrier, at the funnel shaped sign on the platform floor. So when the train comes and people alight the train, anyone who die-die want to board and cross the funnel sign will be zapped, 3 or 4 times would be nice..ok, make it 5 times. Ni kira macam shock treatment lah. Kinda extreme but what the heck, i've had enough of people pushing me back into the train whenever i want to alight...

hehe, i bet after half an hour, almost 80% of those who are at the platforms are half burnt...kahkahkah....

Ps: is this what we are proud of? such a simple thing as giving way also cannot be done..tsk, tsk, tsk

LP IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!! YAY!!!! Oklah, shuld've have posted this 3 weeks ago but i kept forgetting...Im soo excited..they'll be performing at the indoor stadium on the 13th of Nov. im gonna get the seats. There's no way am i going to get the standing tickets and be crushed by crazy smelly fans..Ahhhh...the thought of being soo close to my darling...hehehhe... If there is going to be an autography session, im gonna have to bring my cds and digicam. I hope i get to take a pic with him. I hope i get to hug him and plant a big KISS on his face. I hope i dont faint when i see him. Seriously, that could happen due to over excitement..heh..maybe he'll ask me to marry him??? HAHAHA, joking lah...

Memories are weird arent they? Especially when they come back to you. Its like, a certain stimulus, lets say rain and the scent of rain, will bring back memories of when it rained at school. And a laughter will remind you of someone else's laughter. the wind will remind you of the time when the wind blew so hard, someone's skirt blow up like a balloon..hmm..I miss writing essays..i miss doing research on a certain architect, or a building.

Most of all, i miss being free from responsibilities...

i think there's something wrong with me. Lately, i've gotten excited everytime Friday comes. I'd be all happy2, joy2, like i've just eaten a bowl of Bugis prawn noodles or a big whopper or QiJi's mee siam or..alright,alright, i'll stop it..

Anyway, there was a huge crowd at bedok interchange yesterday night. I thought someone was selling stuff but apparently someone was injured and the ambulance was called. From what i heard, some guy was beaten up by gangsters. Wah, luckily i wasnt in my kepokia mood and didnt went over to the crowd. Kalau tak, tertutup selera aku nak makan. And thank god i didnt arrive when the fight broke out...

3 more weeks of fasting and then everything will be back to normal. I just hope i dont overspend cos someone asked me a very important question. A question that involves the future. Well, ever since i've joined the working world, every little decision i make counts. Money, money, money. Money for the future, for the family, for my health, for my studies maybe? I dont know, preparing for the future is sooo leceh. Its like preparing for war. Suddenly it seems like i cant turn to mum and dad (when have i asked him for help?) for help anymore. Suddenly it seems quite a big responsility to take care of myself.

Tapi Di, jangan ingat dunia ni aje, pls, pls remember to always prepare for the next one..

the one thing that i cannot stand, is not being able to curse. i shouted out the beloved F word on the 2nd day while i had to bite back my tongue when i almost murmured out the C word just now. Some things/people just love to test your patience, especially at this fasting month. Like the stupid printer which refuses to print out anything complete and the supplier who gave me a wide range of color swatches and in the end tells me that i've only got about 6 colors to choose from (which are all pale colors). Damn that $*%*%&^%*(. Now i have to ask client to choose another chair. Idiotic right?

ps: im bored of everything, just want it to be over and done with but i wonder how long will it take..

ramadhan bermula

1st day of Ramadhan, 2nd day of the earthquakes hitting Indonesia. Its just like last year but this time the tremors last longer and are stronger. If im not wrong, i had felt tremors since monday but thought that it was just the construction next door. 2 tremors today, around 7.50 am and 11plus am. I just hope that the people living at that zones hit with earthquake will be patient and tabah, redha with what has happened.

Nothing's the same since she's gone. We look forward to Hari Raya but somehow everyone knows that there's an emptiness somewhere. And now, i dont really see or expect anything special or worth remembering for this year. Just that hopefully, some people will change for the better and that my puasa is sempurna. But deep in my heart, i hope something good happens...

To all my muslim friends, Selamat berpuasa lah yek..:)

ps: i really, really, really hope that i can gain weight, just found out last night that im super underweight...no chance to donate blood after raya if this keeps up.

a fine day

"Dont enter 1408"

Not bad leh, but the storyline was crappy, wait, was there a storyline in the first place? I believe the sound effects helped to build up the anticipation. You can hear everything. I was sinking into the seat, but jumped a few times due to the terkejut scenes. It was literally a pain in the neck to watch cos we were stuck in the very first row...thanks to her highness lah, janji 9pm, but she reached at 9.15, and we queued 2 mins before the show started. NICE. Anyway, the most ridiculous part when the room was cracking up, like an earthquake just happened and then there was a storm and John was struggling in the deep sea..Yeah, lame...

Anyway, i knew that the "happy happy, joy joy" feeling that i had yesterday wouldnt last long..But that temporary feeling was soo delightful, my heart felt light, i didnt drag my feet when i walked and i felt, at peace. Funny, maybe it was something i ate. Maybe it was because of the sun. Anyway, it was really weird but im hoping that feeling will come back frequently. It sucks being depressed all the time.

Ps: i think it was because i woke up with that grateful feeling to Him for being alive. And for once, i loved myself for being the way i am.

im melting

Its scary to look in the mirror and realise that you're only half of what you use to be, in other words, you are shrinking horizontally and maybe vertically. Or maybe im just slouching too much. Anyway,the cita cita i made a few months back to increase weight before the fasting month is unachievable. Its 1 weeks plus and im still like this. I tried, really, really, hard. You should've have seen me stuffing my face with rice, chocs, snacks, chicken, etc, etc, every weekend. Sadly, it was not enough.

So tell me,how am i suppose to fill in the empty gaps in my kebaye??? maybe i should get a maximiser...??hehehheh...;p

On a sidenote, the pressure will be mounting as the T3 proj and the NUH will be starting concurrently. Damn these beruks for taking such a long time to let us start. And dammit, i dont know if i have the patience to endure this. T3 leh, international leh, where am i going to hide my face if the workmanship turns like shit (not if, when it turns like shit, which is very likely to). And the NUH, HAIZ...i need to go through the materials and details again. I NEED MORE TIME !!!!!!