Dying

I've realised that i have been hibernating, or actually i have been forcing my brain to hibernate. Its beginning to sound pathetic but im succumbing to all this shittiness. Why? No concept and NO, i will not end up like designer guys(i'd like to end up on steven sabados' lap though,hehe)
Anyway, i will not say that im desperate, because im not.

Failed Recollections Of A Fool

i couldn't be everything that you want me to be

i must have tried but i can't quite recall it

i couldn't be everything when there's nothing in me

i must have tried but now i'm tired and empty

where did i leave my head

where did i leave you

when have i ever said

"where did i leave you"

i couldn't be someone that i've never been

i must have tried but then i'm just an imitation

i couldn't be perfect

not when i'm so forgetful can i

i must have denied

all my inklings of madness

you must have seen when the daylight comes in that i'm still blind with unreason

you must have seen clearly you have and now you run from me

away from me

when i couldn't be

i'll never be

where did i leave my head

where did i leave you

when have i ever said

"where did i leave you"

oh i forget

Ok, this is a beeuutiful song by the Observatory.

i'd better do model now.

i'd better get moving

ciao.