Sing for Absolution

Yes i admit i've been very busy lately and too lazy to blog. I've soo much stuff to write about but time is very precious for me right now. We have a lot of projects coming up at the same time. Yar, like what the fuck right? These projects are sprouting out like mushrooms lepas hujan. Anyway, since i bet i'll be super blahdy damn busy till christmas, wait, no, until next year actually, or forever (blahdy fuck), i thought i'll just write in to remind myself of this kinda free moment in my life.

What was it that i wanted to write again? Oh, yeah, the cafe that i'll be working on is starting soon, i have to draft out the programme timeline, the meetings with the landlord, client and also contractors and suppliers. Imagine ME, haivng to lead these people and order them around. God, its soo mind boggling and not to mention extremely perplexing and you bet your 50 cents im hyper ventilating right about now. Oh God, what if they ask me about details and stuff? what if i said i dont know again? what if i said i'll ask my boss again? WHAT IF I MADE THE THINKING FACE AGAIN (which always comes across to people that im spacing or blanking out, sheesh)

If you must know, those are all the stuff that im not supposed to say or do in front of people. MUST. REMIND.MYSELF.NOT.TO.SAY.ALL.THAT!!!

So, i was given another lecture by Mama Yoda on people, life, release, and attitude. Too long so i wont bother blogging about it. But it sure made me rethink of what i've been doing. I must say that in this line, we have to be very cautious or should i say sensitive of how we react, our reactions always affect people, in one way or another. And this kind of sucks since i dont like some people and i dont want to be associated with them or be nice to them. I dont even want to acknowledge them. But its weird since when you meet the person, you have to be cordial. PRETEND NOTHING HAPPEN. But its still weird, so i guess i wont tahan long in this design industry, too much politics and mind games.

And life at home has been the same, except that now i wake up to the cries of Tom and Jerry. Yeap, we have 2 kittens who are very, very hyperactive. And they really love to wrestle on top of our heads while we're sleeping. And yeah, im super dee duper broke because the insurance company cut off my moolah on the 15th. Bloody assholes. And we're always short of cash nowadays due to my old man's company yang nak tutup tapi tak tutup2 pastu asik kasi workers off 2/3 minggu. Haiz.

So, i gotta go. One day, i will write in again. That is if im still sane and breathing.