bleep..

YAWN.....

Its funny how when you combine boredom,loneliness and tiredness, it always adds up to hearing voices around you. No, im not a schizo. But these voices will keep telling me to go to sleep or go back home or do something drastic like run around the whole house and scream "I AM NOT CRAZY!!!" So what if the radio's blasting at the background? It doesnt reduce my boredom and my tiredness.

Anyway, gonna lepak with norain in town later. Chit chat lah, what else since both of us are bloody broke. Sad ar. When im broke, i always think of how not to spend money. What the hell am i saying???

Gonna wait for Mama Yoda's comments on the panel. I still havent received the mambo fabrics and when do i have to print?

Weeeeee...almost fell asleep just now. Better start packing. Ciao.

hahaaa

SIGH......

Lets just call him Mr Ako because he looks and sound sooo much like Ako mustapha(in his thinner days). Too bad he's not malay...Haiz...He's sooo cute...(slurp,slurp). He dropped by just now to give samples of the floor finishes which i still havent chosen. God, i hate choosing materials. Anyway, i tried very hard not to look at his face when he talked. If i did, i would've pinched his cheeks and ..... Haha, fill in the blanks man. But its just the same when looking at his hands or his hair.. Shit, forgot to look for his ring so i still dont know if he's married.Wahahaha..., i sound so desperate. But if he's single, i stand a chance right? Hehehehe..man, i crack myself up. I cant stop laughing out loud because it just seems to funny. Sigh...maybe i'll dream of him tonight...hahahaha

Now i forgot all the pissed off feelings in the morning. My stupid spoilt brat sister who has a pig's arse for a mouth wont be getting a tight slap across her face later then. Awww, so sad, i was just contemplating which side of her face would be better to slap, the left or the right cheek.

So, i didnt go for the theatre thingy because my services are not needed anymore..Boohoo..the stage lady was captivated by ys design.It was closer to her 'VISION'. Crap seh. I was trying hard not to laugh at her when she talked.No one even laughed when she made a joke( if it counts as a joke in the first place). To top it all up, i felt like peeing because i downed a whole bottle of coke lime (just to busy myself) and the aircon was full blast. Lehn's son is so cute. I entertained him for awhile by making vroomin noises while waving his toy cars all around like it was an aeroplane. Yeah, yeah, i do have a soft sopt for kids and i bet i looked crazy when i did that.

Oklah, i have got work to do. Haiz, work is so mundane, work is not for me. I cant work anymore. I am not a worker, im a freeloader...

funny

Found this picture on the net while looking for drinks images.. Couldnt stop laughing...

dying

This friday-3.30 pm-Submission for the WS project. Total of 6 a2 boards.

Im dying but i dont think anyone cares. Can i make it? Stupid question, by hook or by hook kena finish everything. Hope i dont have to present but, dream on lah. Mama Yoda told me that she wants me to head the presentation (in front of old farts) so i will have to present. But the pressure is killing me. So many projects to finish up. Everything is always put on hold when there's submission for tender. And guess who has clear all the backlog. No, not the ghost in this house but MOI. God, i feel like dropping dead right now. And yes, will have to continue work at home later. Nice man.

Anyway, guess what we did for mother's day? Nope, i didnt do the tamil version of the ibu song for my mum (which i would've if i know the lyrics). We went to the cemetery to visit my grandparents grave, due to my insistence that we should go. Its been months since we went there. I had been dreaming of my grandma and seriously, couldn't sleep well for the past few months. So on the way there, the mood was kind of melancholic. We just kept quiet. It was even worst when we got there. There's this certain sadness and what's that word...Erm, alah, in malay its sayu yang teramat sangat. Its very hard for me to describe, there's also the feeling of lost or void to be exact. If you've lost someone then you will understand what i mean. It was hot but a bit windy, so that sadness and melancholy just lingers. Tried hard to control myself but i just had to let it out. Miss her so much that it hurts sometimes to be reminded of the fact that she's gone.

The thing about death and memories is that its never tepat. I dont know what the hell im crapping about. Its just that even though i try hard to remember, the memories just fade away as the days go by. That sucks. I dont ever want to forget. But like someone said, i am but human. i dont want it to end up like the merlin story..

" Once you are forgotten, you cease to exist."

That's very sad, dont you think so? All the graves left for centuries to come and no one remembers to drop by just to say a little prayer or to trim the weeds. Waiting and longing for your loved ones to turn up. Sad, very sad. Now, i'll go back and try not to think more about this or else i'll get depressed, which by the way i already am.Ciao