badigol betul

babi siol, bingit betul aku nari, dahlah kene marah tadi pasal aku misplace the names proposal, dahtu banyak lagi kene edit. Citot seh, kene buat 2 scheme, bukan aku sengaje lambat buat tapi takde feel. Aku tau dari 2 minggu lepas aku cakap aku takleh pikir tapi memang betul otak nie tak dapat nak feel, macam tin kosong tau tak.

kau mane tau? orang lain semua mane tau, tau nak paksa pinjam duit ajer lepas tu nak marah aku pulak. Pegi mampus lah, kau ingat kau sorang jer takde duit? Dahla tak puasa, nak sakitkan hati orang yang puasa pulak. Sedarlah diri tu sikit oi, manusia, manusia. Tahap kesabaran dan kewarasan aku sudah nak dekat minimum ni, silap hari bulan...meletup semua. and when that time comes, dont say that i've been influenced and that aku nie da besar kepala, kau tu yang da biol, kau tu yang da tak tau nak fikir. You should take a look in the mirror and really see how idiotic you are now, wait , you cant, you are already so very blinded by your own stupidity's reflection.

Anyway, there's 13 more days to raya. We havent really done the hari raya shopping since everyone is waiting for my pay. I really hate being the oldest sometimes. You have to lead, listen, obey, talk, work hard, blah, blah, blah. But who am i to complain lah kan? Other people are worst off.

Yesterday i was feeling very happy bila goreng cucur udang, buat air cincau, buat jelly peach for buka puasa. Dah lama betul tak work in the kitchen, it feels so nice. When im independent one day(ada rumah sendiri), i'll set aside a whole day to just cooking and baking food. Ahhh, that'll be blissful. That's what you call life.