hey...today could be counted as the worst day of my f**king life. Imagine having to think of your concept panels, your F**king RWP ppt wich my group has not done yet and having to think of what time to go home and what to cook for the blahdy people at home. Im soooooo sorry for shouting at junxian but he should have asked norain and not me.......yar...now everyone will hate me for shouting at them but they dont know that im having a hell of a time coping with stuff at home and school. What is it with people....just because im nice they expect me to be nice all the time is it? I have my f**king problems and i have to think of people's feelings? Who cares about mine?
Yes...i admit that i do get pissed or hurt when people shout at me for no reason(Cos i always do that to others) but i dont keep it in mind cos i know, everyone has their bad and good moods.....I know im not perfect....im not trying to be perfect...i know that i scream at people and i always hurt their feelings but i DONT MEAN IT.......If i dont like the person, i will not talk to the person at all.......
And i dont get what's up with that blahdy bitchy f**king 2nd sister of mine....she expects me to cook and she doesn't help.....and she got the cheeks to eat the food that i cook when she had stayed cooped up in her room playing gameboy....She thinks im her maid....F**k off man...i hope she fails her F**king N level....I mean it...she doesn't treat me like her big sister at all....One day im gonna give her a tight slap on her UGLY face and she's gonna regret raising her voice at me,
Tell you something, im the nicest sister in the world ok,Im not kidding...i cook for my younger sisters cos i love them(except for my 2nd sis) and i dont want them to go hungry.....im sorry that i cant help them with their homework and im sorry that i cant spend time talikng to them...Im sorry that i cant be a better big sister.....
I cant stand being in this family any longer..they expect me to think of them when they never think of how i feel at all...Mom and dad always expect me to be there...what if i die 1 day, who else is gonna take care of them?I cant always be there...I've got school to think about...i've got my own dreams...why do i have to put family in the 1st place....I want freedom from all this responsibility...its not fair cos they're heaping all the troubles at me...Why am i the oldest daughter...y do i have to be a girl in the first place?
Im praying to God every day, so that i can tahan all the crap that i get from the people around me.Im gonna make it big some day and im gonna leave all the shit behind...even if the shit is my family.....call me ungrateful but if i list all the blahdy things that had happened to me..you'll change your mind dude.....
Last words....im gonna buy a penthouse someday and live far, far, far away from my family(of course i'll send mum and dad money) and im gonna live alone...yes...peace at last...nirvana...
So shoot me if i dont achieve this dream of mine.....
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