and so im tired

It has been a hell of a week, whereby my tuesdays and wednesdays were for site meetings in the afternoon. Long meetings with contractors who keep asking you the same fucking question over and over again, main contractor who asks about the design of the counter after 3 months of holding onto my fucking design dwgs and s/steel contractor who wont pick up his fucking damn phone.

She talked to me about this. A long talk which in conclusion tells me not to blow up over these minions since they are replaceable. And i should not get upset over them because i do not owe them anything. Seriously, these people are bastards. Selfish bastards who look down on me just because im a girl and im small.

That bastard shouted at me in front of the MD. So i raised my voice at him. In order not to prolong the issue, i changed the subject and asked them to hold the fucking 'mock up' for me to take a picture of. And he had the guts to talk about me in chinese, when i was standing just 1m away from him!!!!

Can you just imagine the fury mounting up inside? I was so fucking pissed off i almost burst into tears. Not because he was badmouthing me, but because he was setting me up as THE FOOL in front of the client and other contractors. That son of a bitch twisted my words. Bloody fucker he is, he said he doesnt care if i want metallic paint as he will only give me epoxy paint. I felt like bashing his balls with the metal pipe on the floor.

The glass supplier told me not to be afraid when i went over to her mumbling all the curses that i can think of. I think she thought i was going to cry because i was afraid. Fucking hell no! I am not afraid anymore! I wanted to strangle that asshole!!!

Haiz...im tired, im broke, hungry and i have another week to deal with all the surprises those buggers will give me before the official opening. i dont know why the hell we are working with those irresponsible people on the first place.

Sometimes i wonder, what's the point in blogging if everything i ever wrote about nowadays is about anger and exhaustion...

i've got the blues..

i've got friday blues...weird huh? i knew it, my happiness only lasts for a few days and then im back to my depressed/pissed off/negative mode. Aiya, what to do, its in the system. Maybe drinking coffee and lack of REAL FOOD is the reason for this. Speaking of which, below are my top 5 favourite REAL FOOD, which i can eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner..and its really no joke...

REAL FOOD list (FYI, photos are nicked from the internet) not in order of favourite..

1) Nasi Ayam,(with the soup of course, and dont give me plain water with garnishes disguised as soup)

2) Mee Rebus

3) Roti Prata telur (give me 5 please!! and please put some tulang, i want the sum sum..)
IM SO CRAVING FOR PRATA THIS WEEK!!!!!!!

4) Mee Soto (no shredded chicken, more noodles, lesser taugeh k?)

5) Nasi Lemak (please remember to put fried chicken, and i'd like the sunny side egg please)

So another one of my meaningless entries that just serves to make me hungrier. Her words to me before she flew off were to eat more. Well, that's what im trying to do leh..

i wanted to post darling's pix as a finale, but bloody blogger photo upload kept on hanging and if i use the normal photo upload, the last pictures will be first in the post,so will have to edit again. Mah fan right? Da happy2 nak post gambar, bole pek chek pulak... dahla aku nak sapedek..

oh la la la..

Oh Chester, Chester, wherefore art thou Chester? I LAP YOU SOO MUCH LAH DEY!! Come back to Singapore soon!!!

HAHAHAHHAHHA...im still high from the Linkin Park's concert. It was a pity that we didnt get the 148 standing tix. Some of those buggers got to touch my darling, and they broke his necklace.. Argh, im still so jealous... if i were them, i'd have planted a huge kiss on his face instead....SERIOUS!!! So, the crowd in the pit wasnt bad at all, in fact, there was no shoving like the Muse gig, that's why im a bit sore that we didnt get those tix...haiz, what to do, maybe next time. And the energy was overwhelming, everyone was screaming out to all the songs. LINKIN PARK FANS UNITE!!!! haha..

so, more about my darling...OH.MY.GOD!!!!!! he was farking fantastic, fabulous, awesome lor... Damn it, he is so cute, his butt, his stage persona (so sexy!), his face, did i say his butt? oh yeah i did...alah, chester on the whole is cute lah, there's no denying it. And we were surprised that he wasnt short at all, maybe just a bit shorter than the other band members. The rest were freaking good as well, Phoenix went crazy on the guitar for the In Pieces song if im not wrong. But the nicest one was Brad, he remembered the people standing at the side view, and went over and waved at us a couple of times, so we dont feel left out... i wished chester had done more of that too..and he should've taken off his grey shirt too, cos he wore a long sleeved back and red striped shirt before that...oooh...chester half naked and sweating...droooollllzzzzzzzzzz..

So cute kan?????? My darling lah nie...haha

I was almost tempted to scream out 'i love you Chester!!!' but after hearing a guy ( A GUY, SCREAMING) scream out his name, i lost my urge to do it. On the whole, it was a surreal experience lah. Norain and i kept exclaiming that we cant believe we're at an LP concert. Its like a really, really nice dream. And for a split second, i almost wanted to cry as i felt so damn happy. BUT my number 1 dream is to get to take a pix with my darling...Life would be really complete once i get to do that...Hehehe....i wonder what it will turn out like..;p

really?

A friend has admitted that she has indeed fallen in love with an old friend of ours. Well, oklah, she didnt actually say those words, she said that i'll laugh at her if she confessed something. Well, that's like confessing right? Because a few weeks ago, i asked directly whether she had any feelings for him. But she berteka teki dengan aku pulak..binawe..

Oh, what can i say other than I TOLD YOU SO!!!! Hah, there's bound to be some kind of special feelings once the guy has said that he likes you and both of you are getting kind of close at the moment, and to top it up, you are currently single mingle. hehehe..

Im dying to hear her confess, yelah, aku kan makcik kepo. Lagipun, its exciting to hear what's going on exactly and why/how/what made her change her mind. Do you know that this boy used to date another close girlfriend of ours? Ooooh, i actually have a list of boys who had fallen for my friend but i think that's only for me to know..;p

Anyway, a recent conversation on the net with another friend made me think about relationships between those who are of the ripe age to marry, like our age for instance (since skarang,banyak yang kahwin muda). So if you are dating now, is it just love for NOW or love UNTIL MARRIAGE? If its love for NOW, then what's the point in sticking with the guy if you cant stand his crap? You should move on to find someone who you want to marry right?

Yeah, this might sound merepek (since i have no experience in this) but i think im making perfect sense. Wouldnt it be wiser to leave the realtionship if you cant stand the guys' ego, parents or mantan girlfriend? Then u get back in the dating game to find THE ONE, or NOT THE ONE BUT BOLELAH..haha.. This saves the heartpain and the stupid quarrels you might go through..But then again, without those heartpain, or those quarrels, you will not know whether he is THE ONE...

so what's my point now???

I've got no points actually, im just bored and have nothing else to blog about. Other than next TUESDAY IS DA BIG DAY!!!!!!